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31 August 2012:

I'm heartened that Teachers' Day Celebration was successful.

Mrs L would have seen yet another successful and highly commended celebration. Just now YJ remarked that she was rather 偉大; Teachers' Day Celebration (TDC) is supposed to be a surprise for teachers (besides those performing) yet she has to watch the whole thing. Every year she 'forgoes' the surprise just so that other teachers can enjoy the celebration. Well I agree with that but maybe it's a requirement of being in the Staff Welfare Committee, I don't know.

Although I did not actually ask around, I think this year the school was happy (more than happy) with TDC. It is indeed not the usual kind where there were 'normal' songs, 'normal' contests. There was the standard principal's speech and PSG speech but hey, this can't be helped.

This year's TDC was like a concert. Kudos to the Sec 3 student leaders who organised it. There were remarks about how this year was better than last. Well I suppose it was?

Sec 4s sat in front of the Grand Audi this year. I don't know why, but I think that they liked it eventually. Seeing them rise during mass dance - though not all danced I think - was quite touching cos I think they too realised that it's our last year here and last TDC.

The crowd was very responsive this time. I don't remember previous years being so high. Even during the taichi fan performance, they applauded and cheered every time the fan opened. Well, some did say that the applause were 'mocking' ones.

The staff performance was nice. People complained about how off-tune the teacher was, but hey they don't know the background story. The teacher(s) singing the song had sore throat for about a week, resulting in that kind of voice. I think they were actually pitch-perfect, but their voice made it bad. Hmm students shouldn't be so critical I feel. Just enjoy the performance; it takes a lot of courage for teachers to go up there. Although they're young but still having the whole school watch you may be nerve-wracking.

Gangnam Style was the hot favourite amongst students, I guess. The student leaders and performers crowded at the side of the auditorium and we cheered so loud after the song cos we knew what was coming up. Indeed the crowd went crazy when seeing the words appear on the slide.

Mr C appeared at the chorus prancing around. I honestly don't know what set of dance moves that were but I think it's from the 80s or 90s? Certainly not fitting to Gangnam Style. It was cute though and the crowd were entertained. But sadly the teachers' 'real' Gangnam Style moves were blocked by Mr C since he kept prancing around. The teachers (the front ones, especially) were really good during rehearsal and I wanted to see it again. Oh well.

Mr P stood nearby behind me during mass dance. Actually the idea was to have student leaders and organising committee people stand in front, blocking the teachers in case they can't dance. It was quite funny seeing him dance, since as a principal he's usually giving speeches or just interacting. But hey he's a fast learner I think, doing the moves correctly the first time around.

I think Mrs T should have danced with us too; I don't know where she was. My impression of her changed after chem lecture and subsequent meets. (Every time she meets me, she asks me a chemistry definition.)

Oh there was a small blemish though. JT was singing his part but there was no sound. Turns out AVA did not switch his mic on. It's quite ironic since most of the time it's performers who forget to turn the mic on but this time the AVA were the ones. The Sec 4s were very supportive and encouraging by clapping along so that it wasn't too awkward, I guess.

TTFN.


30 August 2012:

Ten years on how and what would you remember me for?

Our lives in secondary school are ending. Whether we can't bear to leave or can't wait to leave, it's ending. The teachers that have taught us for the past four years, we'll leave them soon. The buildings that you look at for five days a week, you'll not see them in a long time.

The friendships you made ... or broke; will you choose to keep them dear in your heart? Or will you choose to start afresh from whichever institution you head to in the future? Will you be someone who continues to meet up with secondary school friends, or slowly fade away using various excuses?

Four years. If you think of it, four years, it ain't short, it ain't long. If you ask me I think four years is just about enough. Your first year is getting to familiarise yourself with the school. Try and make new friends; it can be a fresh start for some who had bad primary school days.

Your second year is used to continue to learn while enjoying. You hopefully make even more friends, and of course by then you make your choice of subject combination. It is then that you leave your friends you have made to go to different classes. Your friendship, supposedly or not, is tested here.

You may be close to some during lower secondary. Both of you vow to keep in touch. "We'll meet up okay though in different classes!" Both of you agree on this. Then comes the third year.

This is where homework really gets a lot. Don't give me bullshit about having lots of homework during lower secondary. You have never experienced upper secondary homework-load before. With homework, there may come an inverse relation of existing friendships.

The 'we'll meet up' slowly becomes 'sorry, not today'. And that evolves yet again. Maybe last time it was very friendly and lively hellos that were exchanged. Slowly it becomes awkward waves. Should I wave or not, both of you think. Sometimes one party doesn't, the other does so too late, and you have the classic awkward delayed wave.

The fourth year: it's an irony because while homework, tests and other matters pile up the most, you would by right have the most fun and learn the most. Learn might not be referring to syllabus; you obviously should finish the O Level syllabus by then. Learn, as in, learn about people, about friends, about human relations.

Possibly about how you were, or are, an arsehole back then (or maybe till now). The things you did two years ago may suddenly become very lame. Risque humour that you avoided, instead becomes the main conversation starters.

Indeed much can change within four years. Which is why I said it's not long, either. I like to look back in history. Not dwell and feel guilty about past mistakes, but to observe what things were then.

How will people remember me? Maybe the first thing that comes to mind is 'short'. I can't stop people from thinking so; after all I guess height - extremely tall or extremely short - is considerably noticeable. But could there be more to height?

What about 'arrogant', 'bossy'? I have had people honestly reflecting their opinions of me in such. I will definitely be an unjust judge of myself, as it is all too common that we tend to judge ourselves less harshly. Hence I shall not comment on these, but perhaps it shall be true.

I don't know. I've made mistakes in the past four years. There must have been countless times, especially for severely imperfect people like me. I only remember two.

One would be misusing my new-found power as a councillor during lower secondary, against D. I was personally upset and angry at her behaviour, and unreasonably tried to book her. Although the offence I written down, strictly speaking, was valid, 憑良心講 I was not booking her for that.

D was really angry. She wanted to complain to Mr C and my senior (which happens to be the one I disliked most). Eventually I agreed to stop and the matter was laid to rest. If I don't remember wrongly I did not apologise. It was not that I purposely did not, but then it just didn't occur to me that I should.

Now D and I are in the same class. So that's four years in total with D, although of course I'm not close to her. Yet now we are on talking terms, and I think she has completely forgot this matter. Yet she did remark to me previously that she extremely disliked me during lower secondary.

Another would be my rant on Twitter over L. This happened last year, so I guess the impression I had is stronger. I don't know L personally, and I still don't now. Which shows how stupid I was about mocking and sort-of insulting him.

I remember waking up from a nap to a message confirming whether or not I typed something against L. I went to Facebook to check and I saw posts of people condemning me. I can't say anything against it; this is natural reaction upon seeing such things I guess.

This time I apologised. L did not reply or respond to my apology, and this has left me rather crestfallen. It's not that I demand he must accept it, but I feel that this is one 'puzzle' yet to be completed. However, I am contented with the state of affairs now.

L and I just live our lives as it has always been. We pass by each other on the corridor and don't wave. I don't know how he's thinking exactly but I hope that he has forgiven me. My stereotype of L also dropped after a while. I agree with his views sometimes.

We all made mistakes in the past four years. Sometimes they are severe and harrowing, but mostly they are minor ones that constitute our path of learning. We are all expected to be better men (and women) after four years of secondary learning, rightly expected to move on to tertiary education.

Would you remember me by my mistakes? I leave you with a song. It's not directly related with the theme of today's post, but it's a song that has memories. I don't know whether or not the one person I associate with this song can remember, or maybe not since he / she did not realise what this song meant to me then.


28 August 2012:

Some words about conversations.

Just now when leaving school I had a chat with C. I asked him about his preparation for prelims, which is rightly on everyone's minds now. We talked for about 7 minutes on different English teachers and things like that.

What I like about C is that he has the heart. When talking to me, you sense the feelings he is trying to convey and you feel for him or feel with him. He may not be as good or slick a debater as H, but he has the heart.

I'm not saying that H is hypocritical or superficial. However sometimes when exchanging points with H you may feel a little that he isn't as sincere. Since he can play around with words you never know when he may be concealing things from you by means of his words.

C, on the contrary, bares his heart and thoughts out. What he feels, he shows. And I think that there is rather rare nowadays. Everyone is hiding behind masks. Some of them are so thick that you probably can't separate their masks from their faces.

Well you're stupid if you don't. It's true to a small extent, but then again it's quite sad because at the end of the day there is no genuine human contact.

Besides C, there are a few other people I enjoy talking to. And unlike what some may think, I don't only enjoy talking to you if you can talk serious stuff like politics or current affairs. Even if you were to talk to me about entertainment (provided I know what you're talking about), I can still have a fab time with you and enjoy myself.

I personally feel it's the heart and the intellect. To me intellect has little connection with intelligence. Oxford Dictionary may (or may not) prove me wrong, but these are my definitions of the two words. Even when talking about non-serious stuff like entertainment, I feel there's still a need to (1) stay logical and (2) stay objective.

It's not only current affairs or serious discussion that begs these two precepts. For example, if you talk about how lousy Stefanie Sun is without backing that up, I won't enjoy my talking with you. And I'm not being biased to only my idol, it applies to anyone or anything.

Although conversations are meant to be light-hearted, things will get stale if one party talks nonsense. I know some people who are like that. Nonsense does not mean differing ideas or views. Nonsense means absolutely lame things that do not directly contribute to the matter of discussion. It's as if 'lame randomness', to put it in another way.

I feel that talking and having conversations is something that we generally overlook. We are given a mouth each. Save people who have speaking disabilities, all of us would be able to converse. Yet how many can converse well?

Just because we have a mouth doesn't mean we can speak well. To speak well isn't to overpower your audience and compel them to subscribe to you. It's about engaging them. (This, I believe, is what the ruling party has failed and is trying to improve, by the way.)

I of course try and engage people. Yes some say that what I say is lame, but at the end of the day I think that I can at least (1) stay logical and (2) stay objective. If humour really isn't gonna be my friend at the end of the day, at least I don't lose rational listeners who can overlook by my lack of humour.

One problem I face is to explain myself. I admit that I am bad at this. Many a time I know and understand perfectly well what is going on, yet I can't bring up words to suit my argument or my stand.

This complicates conversations from time to time. If it's informal, it's not that bad, but imagine if it's formal instructions waiting to be given. I'll certainly cause lots of unnecessary delay with my flawed statements.

This brings me to my English prelim tomorrow. While I blog mainly in English nowadays (my first posts were largely Chinese, I think) this does not tantamount a distinction in it.

The writing style I employ here is different from what the old folks at Cambridge wish to see. They would not be impressed if I present them such 'flowy' essays which do not even seem to adhere to any particular theme, seeing that I have jumped from conversations to exams. I look forward to prelims on the one hand so that I may seek an appraisal for my standards in subjects. On the other hand, I fear getting a nasty appraisal back after 19 September.

Nevertheless this is nothing compared to O Levels waiting menacingly 55 days later. I shall not be daunted by prelims no matter what the scores may be (though I'll certainly be down if it's not good) and press on till the end of O Levels. Good luck to all; the season begins tomorrow.

TTFN.

Wow what a gung-ho propagandistic post, eh? Well I suppose it's just how I feel at this juncture. Along the way you may have noticed some not so common words which yes, I deliberately experimented with it here in the light of tomorrow's English. Hopefully they will be useful in one way or another.

I actually intended to bitch about some 'Indonesian' on this post but oh well I shall not spoil my image. *flick hair* (no hair to flick.) Well I figured it'll be rather ironic if there I am preaching about saying meaningful things and here I am bitching about someone. So I not dwell on that 'Indonesian'.


26 August 2012:

如果沒有緣那就算了。

很多事情我們不能強求。

既然分開就不要再拖拖拉拉的。福建話有個說法:「愛就愛,莫就莫。」(ai tio ai, mai tio mai)

意思簡單、清楚。要就要,不要就不要。別拖拖拉拉的,在那裡躊躇。

躊躇浪費時間。與其躊躇不如用這時間搞別的事。

說不定那樣更好呢。


23 August 2012:

Imagine getting a sore throat on the day of O Level oral.

When I woke up in the morning and swallowed a glob of saliva, ouch I went as the saliva flowed past my swollen and sore throat.

This certainly alarmed me and I almost jumped out of bed. Today was not any other day; today was O Level oral for English. There was nothing much I could do, so I went to the fridge and took Strepsils to bring to school.

Every 2 hours from 7am, I took one Strepsils. It certainly brought relief to my throat and myself. I also bought an additional bottle of mineral water since I wasn't going to last on my small water bottle for the whole day with a sore throat.

Luckily, oral was alright. It may not be fantastic, but at least I wasn't nervous, like last year during Chinese oral. It was a little sad though that the examiners kept interrupting me. Although Ms C assured us previously that it need not mean a bad thing, I couldn't show my skills (yalah hao-lian lah) that I've tried to master. There were connectors to use and techniques but it all was wasted. I think there is no oral in A Levels, so oh well this is the final oral.

Also luckily, the topic today was not as hard as two days ago. Today is about education and buildings (?!). Two days ago it was 'issues in your local community'. Whoa?

That certainly took many people by surprise. This topic is certainly difficult, since it can be linked to local politics and governance. Not everyone can handle that, especially if they do not read voraciously. I feel for those who took oral on that day.

~

One thing I want to touch on. I really think it's absolutely crappy when you put in hard work and others don't, yet they keep getting you to help them.

Today we had bio PT from 4 to 5. From our class, only eight people came. The reason given to Ms T was that we had oral. The truth is that a bunch of girls were staying in class, the usual bunch of guys were playing football, and of course some sad ones really stuck in oral.

It's alright if these people wanna stay in class / play football. But afterwards, they would go around asking for answers to what Ms T had gone through. Maybe I'm just selfish and petty, but I feel that you should 'work' for such things.

At the very minimum, stay back and listen for such lessons when you can. If it's really due to oral, then no choice for you. I would certainly help those people instead. Yet, these people spend their 4 to 5 pm otherwise and try ways to get answers.

I don't think it's very nice of them. I'm not attacking anyone in particular, but it's this action that I don't like. Why should people help you when you don't help yourself?

Someone once told me that no matter what religion you are, if you don't help yourself, no one can help you. Although religion has nothing to do with this, but the central message still stays.

If and when people ask me for answers sometimes I feel bad if I don't help them. Because I don't know if I'm just being petty. Maybe I'm the only one thinking such wrong thoughts and everyone else doesn't mind helping. Also, I generally won't reject friends. I feel bad if I reject them, although they shouldn't go overboard too, lah.

~

-rant over-

Tomorrow I'm helping XY to do a voice over for her CMS project. I've 'warned' her today that my voice is not in its best state, so she should be prepared for a hoarse me tomorrow. Of course, I do hope that after a good night's rest tonight, I'll be alright tomorrow.

If I've not recovered by tomorrow, I'll be doomed. The supply of Strepsils has ran out and it's not easy to get one. I'll just drink more water and talk less (crap).

~

Yesterday (23 Aug; Is this time to be happy?) I blogged about Section 377A of the penal code and my thoughts on it. The blogpost was featured on Daily SG yesterday. Thanks for recommending my article~ At that site, I saw another blog post: My Fellow Singaporeans: I am Roy. I am Gay and This is My Story. (The anal-retentive side of me is uncomfortable about the erratic capitalisation but anyways) it is a good blogpost worth reading, I feel. The main message for tl;drs is that just because someone is gay does not mean that it changes them greatly in any other ways. It's just that they have different sexual preferences.

I felt that Roy was very, very [...] (just can't think of word). In his comments someone by the name of 'J' said "a gay cannot be a man and a man cannot be a gay". I may have rephrased it but the message is surely that. I have seen responses that flame such comments about their ignorance and bigotry, but Roy responded by asking him why he thinks so. If 'J' is willing to answer this sensibly as to why his personal opinion is of such, then maybe there would be one less person that misunderstands gays (and possibly lesbians and transgenders).

I think I shall take a break from the issue of LGBTs now. After all, the courts have not yet decided on a hearing date. Perhaps I shall touch on this when there are other developments.

TTFN.


22 August 2012:

Is this time to be happy?

Yesterday at 11pm I was briefly scanning CNA for any news headlines that were interesting. I saw 'criminalises gay sex' (that was all I saw), and immediately got elated. Was 377A going to be repealed?

I rushed back into my room and checked Google News from my phone. Sadly, no, it wasn't to be repealed. Yet, there is still room for hope. The Court of Appeal had overturned the ruling by High Court for an assessment of the constitutionality of 377A.

If that's a mouthful to handle, it's basically that the courts would be discussing whether 377A was unconstitutional or not. 377A makes sex between two males, whether in public or private, illegal and punishable by a jail term. A 49-year-old man had alleged that this law was unconstitutional as our constitution states something about personal liberty.

It certainly is refreshing to see this debate reigniting. When PM Lee asked Singaporeans what they wanted Singapore to be in 20 years time, one of my hopes was that there would be no more discrimination against homosexuals and bisexuals (LGBTs). Already it seems like transgenders are less discriminated, since Miss World now allows transgenders and Straits Times published a full column by Andy Ho supporting it.

When is it turn for gays and lesbians to not get discriminated by laws? Opponents of 377A have stated that this law dates back to Victorian era, which was when Singapore was still under British rule. Many years later, UK does not have such a law anymore, yet we still keep it.

PM Lee said in 2007 that the law would be kept but not actively enforced because Singaporeans are still conservative. I would like to question: what is the actual definition of conservative?

From time to time, the definition of conservative would change. What we think is very conservative now may be out of the world centuries ago. The key is change.

Around the world, laws are being released over LGBTs. Even in America, Obama has okay-ed gay marriage, although that has not been enforced fully. (While I am rather anti-America, this is one move I applaud.) Vietnam, a conservative communist country, has considered allowing gay marriages.

Are we conservative or backwards then? Of course, I'm not saying that we be populist. If not very soon just because some people request, incest and necrophilia would be legal. That would not be good. The difference is that LGBTs do not contravene ethics, while necrophilia and incest do.

I understand that some religions may have things against homosexuality. Again, I would stress that there should be change. Even in Buddhism which I follow, I do not agree to some of the more extreme rules in it.

Religions were created or founded centuries ago. Things were very different then. During that time, such things were accepted. Now, maybe it's time to take a look again and decide whether religion should take a step back and see if compromises can be made.

I don't believe that you are not devout if you do not follow every single rule that your religious ruler teaches. I believe that since it is a faith, so long as you believe in yourself and the religion, you will still be faithful.

(I suddenly remembered the comment by that Republican about how female bodies would be able to shut off sperms if they were really raped. Someone teach this guy about biology, and how to save his face.)

Back to 377A, I await the ruling by the courts. Of course, it would take a long time. 377A may not even be repealed this time. But regardless, I shall wait for this change. I have seen how some LGBTs are discriminated, and it's rather saddening to see such things.

It's been five years since 377A was last discussed. Previously it was in Parliament in 2007. Now it's done through the courts in 2012. Does this signal change? Is this time to be happy? I'm not sure, still ambivalent about it.

Nevertheless, a hope for the best.

TTFN.


19 August 2012:

Mary had a little lamb.

Mary had a little lamb, then she ate it cos she couldn't afford food and necessities.

Mary had a little lamb, then she sold it to buy Brompton bikes for $57,000.

Mary had a little lamb, and she chose to take MRT instead.

Mary had a little lamb, and she became richest person in the world when her lamb is starving.

Mary had a little lamb, then she was offered care taking services for the lamb even if she didn't have the lamb.

Mary had a little lamb, then she threatened it to go forth and multiply else face extinction.

Mary had a little lamb, and she had sex to get a Degree in Lambs.

Mary had a little lamb, and she had more sex to ink contracts.

Mary had a little lamb, then she made sure it repented when it ran away from her.

Mary had a little lamb, then she has to carry its bag.

Mary had a little lamb, and she translated its name wrongly.

Mary had a little lamb, and she sold it for an iPad in China.

Mary had a little lamb, then she jailed it for supporting some anti-Mary pussies that rioted.

Mary had a little lamb, then she stated that the capital of Republic of Lamb was Wolf City.

Mary had a little lamb, and she went around the neighbourhood claiming others' lambs were hers too.

Mary had a little lamb, and she kept referring to it as 'llama'.

Mary had a little lamb, then she wouldn't say more due to lack of press freedom.

Mary had a little lamb, then she disowned him cos he was gay.

Mary had a little lamb, and she is trying hard for it to get into GEP by giving it intensive tuition.

Mary had a little lamb, and she sent lamb to some guy called Kelvin for GEP tuition.

Mary had a little lamb, then she has to give it leave every month or pay it.

Mary had a little lamb, then she murdered a Briton cos he tried to harm the lamb.

Mary had a little lamb, and she named it Young.

Mary had a little lamb, and she would post 24 pictures of it every hour on Facebook.

Mary had a little lamb, op op op op. EHH SEXY LADY~

Mary had a little lamb, 吧.


18 August 2012:

我喜歡唱歌。

唱歌,陶冶性情也。

悲歌使心淀、穩。聞其悲,有悟內理。

喜歌使心綻、犇。聞其喜,同受內由。

唱歌乃藝也,勿隨便。

喉之控、氣之沉,重要哉。

勿隨便,唱歌乃藝也。

藝非一日即詣,需恒久培練。

唱歌如同。

喜華歌、厭多英歌。

華歌多有內涵,英歌多只節奏。

英歌詞無哲、無理,乃平仄到位矣。

昨經網頁睇詞歌。聽覺不錯,故分享。


17 August 2012:

Thankfully this MV provided entertainment for the week.


The week wasn't spectacularly well for me. I'm not gonna rant or anything, though.

Just watch this and get entertained, if you haven't already. I think the video's really interesting and creative. I'm not a fan of KPop lah but wow this one is exceptional.

The video was played in class with Mr L and Mdm T present. Mdm T laughed along to but of course she mentioned that the butt-shaking was definitely inappropriate.

May next week be a better one ah.

TTFN.


15 August 2012:

Just some things.

1. Recently it was discovered that there were lapses in 21 government bodies and agencies. While the rest of Singapore is screaming at the government for the loss of taxpayers' monies, I am going to say that, yes, this is a good thing.

Hear me out please.

Of course it's not good when millions of dollars are lost / transferred to wrong parties. However, I think that it is good that now these things start to emerge.

I am of the belief that the watershed election has prompted the government to do a thorough check of their internal procedures. They do face audits yearly but I suppose this year 'special instruction' must have came through to indicate that this needs to be extra stringent.

I have read complaints about how Singapore has a wonderfully problem-ridden bureaucracy. In the past that was essential and useful to quickly ensuring Singapore would prosper and grow. Now that Singapore is in better grounds, the bureaucracy has instead became a breeding ground for many problems such as fraud, graft and many others.

2. On Monday came the heated debate between K Shanmugam and Sylvia Lim. Sorry ah Mr Shanmugam. Despite last Saturday's newspaper articles indirectly commending you for being consultative and open to feedback, I thought you were an arsehole then.

I read the transcript from Straits Times. In case it matters, I shall state that I did not view the actual video of what happened. I read it based on how Straits Times reported. I felt that Mr Shanmugam was intimidating Ms Lim.

You, as Law Minister, may have your facts and all that, but that is no way to talk to a fellow Member of Parliament. You may be of higher rank than Ms Lim but you should not have been so condescending.

It was no wonder Mr Low rose to ask if Mr Shanmugam was intimidating Ms Lim. As usual, Mr Shanmugam regarded the word 'intimidate' as an opposition 'standard vocabulary' thing. Well, if the opposition does use that word so much, it may be time to actually ask yourselves if you have been intimidating and condescending.

(I think being in such positions for too long, and having an overwhelming majority of fellow comrades on your side does something to one's attitude and it turns this way.)

Also ah, I still feel Mr Woffles Wu was let off too lightly. Sorry ah, Mr Shanmugam. No matter what you say and how you define, describe and defend, I still think he was let off too lightly.

Whether or not it was really because he was of prominence, that is of another matter. He may have been let off so easily because there were really slip-ups or loopholes in the procedures that acted in this case. My point is, I believe that Mr Wu was let off too easily.

While that may not be very objective of me, well, I really don't wish too delve further into this, lah. The law is very specific and there would be many layers to pull back just to investigate. I don't think that we should consider too much on this case.

Whatever the reason, most of us shall just remember it as what we feel and forget about it. If such a case occurs again, then shall be the time to make more noise and thoroughly question the government. (Which of course shall defend its system again.)

I don't know if you get what I mean by the previous few paragraphs on top, but oh well never mind.

3. Singapore is ranked No. 1 as richest country based on GDP / capita. Wonderful, you think? No.

According to calculations I saw online (which is disclaimer for its exact reliability), the average Singaporean should earn $4000+. But how many are earning this amount? There are many who don't, I am sure.

This shows the problem of income inequality in Singapore. Of course, this is inavoidable in a capitalist economy. Definitely we should not head into communism for the sake of eliminating income inequality but still something needs to be done.

I await the government's response on things regarding income inequality. While I did not keep track then, I believe that this was a hot-button issue for GE2011. With PM Lee mentioning 'social safety nets' and 'falling between the cracks' and other flowery terms, what is to be done to solve this?

4. My AMaths is disappointingly in trouble recently.

Okay after three robust opinions about current affairs in Singapore, this seems very insignificant. But no, it is truly freaking me out.

I'm not trying to boast but my AMaths really was not bad. I can't say I'm getting ninties for the exams but it's safe A1s each time.

Recently for the mock paper I scored 46 / 71. That translates to around 64%. A drop of about 20% is simply disasterous, isn't it? Even if it was any other subject, a drop but that much is also a signal for concern.

Of course, being AMaths, that makes me more worried. I didn't really focus on AMaths since I was consistently scoring decent grades previously. I would think that AMaths would be a subject that I need not spend so much time on, as compared to physics, for example.

It seems like I can't do that now. The worse thing is that I am mainly careless. If it was because I am unsure of concepts, that can be learnt (especially with TLC from Mrs P). But it's the carelessness!

Carelessness was also what killed my primary school mathematics. It seems like carelessness has came back once again, this time months before O Levels. What am I to do?

Today I did two questions. Both, I was careless at the first few steps and because of that the rest of it was wrong. This made me waste time checking every detail again and again. Most of the time I don't spot it at all and end up re-working the problem. I again get the wrong answer and waste more of my time.

If this takes place during prelims, I can kiss my B3 good bye. (Don't even talk to me about A1 or A2.) Tomorrow there are free periods and I am looking to completing more AMaths. Let's hope I do not make those mistakes again.

TTFN.

Okay there's still some more. I left a comment on PM Lee's page about political cartoons. He mentioned Mr Heng Kim Song's cartoons in Lianhe Zaobao, and how he liked them. I highlighted the stark contrast of quality in cartoons in Lianhe aobao and Straits Times. The former has very, very thought-provoking and critical ones but the latter has bland, boring and sometimes stupid cartoons. I can understand if it needs to promote government policy but it still should not be just like any other comic strip seen in Lifestyle section.

Probably Mr Lee may not even read my comment but oh well, I aired my views. Anyway, even if he read it, I don't think he would really do much since this is of least significance to him on his national agenda.


13 August 2012:

Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world.


This song was played on the last episode of Skins season 1. It's been a while since I finished seasons 1 and 2 of Skins. What a nice show. I certainly have no time for seasons 3 to 6 now but after O Levels, definitely.

I wrote in to Channel 5 recommending more British shows, specifically Skins. However I don't think that'll be possible lah cos Skins is really vulgar and sexual. We don't have watershed TV programming so I guess it's difficult for Channel 5 too. There's no reply from them, which saddens me a little. I was so sincere in typing out that feedback e-mail. Based on their latest newsletter, they responded to people who merely asked for certain shows to be back.

Oh well, fingers crossed, maybe Channel 5 is so impressed with my letter but they're secretly implementing my suggestions! *like real* Anyway I shall move on.

~

Some depressing news I received today. (Yoda I am not.)

G was mentioning how students must take physics in JC and not biology if they wanna be doctors in the future.

That sure was a very, very big blow. I had planned to take bio, chem, maths and history / Chinese in JC. Now my 如意算盤 is messed up. Gah.

G said that people would take physics and chemistry, then take a bridging course during university for medicine. Wow. That's really disappointing for me.

I'm not a physics person. Definitely not. I have been trying since Sec 1 but physics and me just don't make good friends. I have an affinity for biology, though. I know Mr L is a good teacher and I feel bad to disappoint him lah but my physics has not been good since Sec 3.

The road to becoming a forensic pathologist is a tough one in Singapore. You have to serve your bond as a doctor in a local government hospital for five years or so. Then, you may get shortlisted to transfer over to HSA, where you can practise forensic pathology. The chance is very rare and I think there is tough competition.

To even get into medicine at NUS, the competition is overwhelming. Sure there's the easy way out of going to universities abroad such as Imperial College London but those are very, very expensive. My parents' pockets would be burnt lah, please.

Unless I get a scholarship, but with my qualifications and credentials, there's many better than me. Why would I get selected when others better are rejected?

The biology syllabus for JC is screwed and skewed. It focuses so much on molecular genetics and DNA. Just because cloning, genetics and R&D are relatively new fields of biology, that doesn't mean that JC students should mainly focus on that.

Some take biology because they want to be veterinarians or biologists. Tell me again how molecular genetics would oh-so-benefit them?

Others want to be a doctor. Yes there's more relevance now, but is it so essential until the syllabus is skewed towards it? Why can't it be like the O Levels style where the last theme of biology is on genetics?

That still highlights its importance yeah, while not undermining the other topics' importance. At least one biology teacher has advised not to take biology in JC because of the syllabus.

Haiz so I am very, very torn right now. Should I be stubborn and still take biology? I would most probably do better in biology than physics but according to G, the chance of my being a doctor (and subsequently forensic pathologist) is very low. On the contrary, if I change my strategy and take physics, what if I do so badly I flop my A Levels? I'll be left with not much career options as well.

Therefore, I am confused. Very confused. Maybe I should leave this worry, together with the one about taking H2 Chinese or not aside.

If I really perform very, very well during O Levels, 到時候 I'll be less stressed out when chossing all these. 船到橋頭自然直。

TTFN.


11 August 2012:

Все дело в количестве.

Recently I have been rather obsessed with numbers.

On National Day, I was delighted to see my viewership.


Previously I caught 8888 views as well, if I'm not wrong. I don't know if I posted it, though. It has risen to 10164 since then~

Ever since I got my iPhone around February 2012, I've been screen-shotting various times.


Some should be familiar to you lah but oh well I shall explain them.

1111 was what Ellen DeGeneres kept on seeing, according to her. She said that almost whenever she looked at her clock, it was 1111. She founded a label company (or something like that) named 1111. That was last year, and since then people have regarded this as sort of a 'lucky number'. I know of people who will make a wish on 1111. (I think Ellen's clock needs repairing, that's all.)

1331: this number is just for fun, lah.

1314 is supposed to mean 一生一世 for couples to stay forever together. Or even you're sadistic and all that, it could mean 一生一死 so one of you will die. Anyway I shall stick with the friendly meaning. I think it's rather romantic eh, this time. Maybe I would send my future girlfriend such screen shots every day.

1414 is, in Chinese superstition, rather unlucky. (Well I don't know why I still screen-shot it.) 14 is the Chinese equivalent of 13 in Western culture, which carries an unlucky meaning. In various dialects such as Hokkien and Cantonese, and even Mandarin itself, the pronunciation of 14 sounds like death. Hmm.

1819, the year Raffles stepped on Singapore and stared at the Singapore River. People have erected a statue of his iconic pose. But what if he was actually cross when he stood there? (This sentence has a double pun. You are as witty lame as me if you understand it.)

2222 and 2233 were just random 'for fun' numbers.

2257 is the article number for the U.S. law on child pornography, or something like that. Before you hand me over to authorities, I shall clarify that my internet habits do not include child pornography. Why I took this number was because I was constantly seeing this number, just like how Ellen always saw 1111.

Finally, 2323 and 2332 were also for fun.

~

Check out what I set out to do yesterday:


Very disciplined right? No.

I didn't accomplish majority of the things listed. I only finished (90%) Chinese and read some of Newsweek.

I actually fell asleep at 4 while reading Newsweek. If you see the schedule, at 4 I was supposed to be having tea break. I didn't have tea break yesterday; my whole schedule was messed up.

My maid (thankfully) woke me up at 5.30. I slept for 1.5 hours, which meant it was wasted. Chemistry paper was not done.

I read my daily dose of 笑傲江湖 around 6. I enacted some parts (the fighting bits), so I think my maid was surprised to hear my shouting Chinese stuff. Or maybe she's already got used to the nonsense I do at home.

AMaths time was really worrying. I only did question 1 part a, cos part b was too difficult for me. Which meant procrastination till lunch. (Don't ask me why I did not do Chinese.)

The one thing I did not miss, without surprise, is компютр времий. I know, I know. O Levels are coming soon, like what I said in the previous post.

I have set another schedule for today. I think this one shall be better followed.

TTFN.


10 August 2012:

About two things.

1. There isn't much time till O Levels.

Yes, I am such a lagger. Although there is a countdown thingy on the white board, I didn't fully realise how little time there is left.

It's around 3 weeks to prelims. After prelims, it's another 2 weeks to the real deal.

Horribly close isn't it.

I'm still not working hard. I know it for myself. The only solution?

Work hard.

2. "All arseholes are equal. Some are more equal than others."

And that is what I learnt recently. It turns out that when I am an arsehole, people detest me.

But when others are arseholes, possibly even more arsehole-ish than me, people easily forgive and forget.

Yes maybe I'm petty and all that but I don't understand this double standards thing.

Pray someone will give me an answer.

TTFN.


9 August 2012:

Selemat hari jadi, Singapura.

Singapura, anda berusia 47 tahun sekarang. Anda telah merdeka selama hampir setengah abad.

Menikmati hari jadi anda, Singapura.


8 August 2012:

就這樣被你征服,切短了所有退路。

今天慶國慶。

早上的時候舉行比較特別的升旗禮,播的國歌好想是舊版的,比較高。

第一部份的慶祝上他們已經播放了今年的國慶主題曲。就是那個我非常討厭的那個。

我很氣憤,為何不播一些膾炙人口的,像《家》或《一起走到》。

慶祝一下后我們去了所謂的panel discussion。我還以為學校真的要和我們聊聊國家的事情,蠻興奮的。

結果到了那裡,發現它仿佛就是SS課的延伸。雖然他們的大課題是What Makes Singapore Unique?,不過一講到公共房屋和國民服役,就真覺得是一個SS課。

有些人會說這只是propaganda。雖然我不是很喜歡這個panel dicussion,可我不會這麼認為。畢竟,老師的講解方式沒有很偏任何一方,而是比較公正的說明全面。

慶祝的第二部份就是回到禮堂看戲。不過這回還好,不比第一個悶。這回他們用了沙藝術,表演了一個故事。當然,這個故事非常propaganda,表明「新加坡還是你我的家」。拜託啦。

沙藝術過後是一個短劇。這是我看過的相當好的一出吧。演員們非常專業認真,而且當中還有和觀眾互動的成份。

可惜的就是扮演萊佛士的那男的,他英國腔沒有掌控的很好呀。萊佛士(的父親)是約克郡(Yorkshire)人,所以講的英語會有英國的約克郡腔。表演的那人用的是中國腔的英國腔,怪可笑的。

不過不過,這個短劇我可是非常非常欣賞。特別是劇情上的一個迴環部份,太絕妙了。我想我都想不出這樣的點子吧。

令我最氣憤的便是尾聲的部份學校要求我們起立唱主題曲。

什麽?!

如果你說唱國歌,我會毫不猶豫的起立。但是,唱那首下三濫的主題曲?!

我實在不想起立的,但主任看著我,又不好不站。

哼。



After the celebration I headed home and showered. There wasn't much time, and after around 2 hours I left the house again.

Reaching Bishan MRT at 4, I met with KL, GY and DX. I didn't know DX was invited lah but oh well it's alright. LY was gonna be late cos she ended her CMS consultation at 4, while LJ, JK and RH were still at the Treetop Walk at Gardens by the Bay. YJ and JQ were still having their date buying presents. CW and SY were at where ever location they were at having a date also doing their class video.

So the four of us went shopping at NTUC. We bought sausages and drinks. In retrospect, the sausages were unnecessary cos there was too much food. Drinks were too little. So we should have spent the sausage money on drinks instead.

After buying we went to Braddell MRT. We waited for LY to arrive and we then went to KL's house.

His was a HUDC, which is something like a condominium but something like a HDB flat. Such a coincidence since we had public housing lecture just hours ago. His house was not far from the MRT station, just a few minutes walk away.

We set our drinks and sausages down at the BBQ pit and went to collect the foodstuffs from KL's house. The caterer had arrived too early and the foodstuffs had to be stored in the fridge for a while. Luckily it wasn't spoilt or anything.

We brought the stuff down and KL's father helped set up the place. Some of us started to write CW's birthday card. Halfway through YJ called to say that they had reached Braddell MRT.

I went to bring them from the station to his house. However when I was there they got me to choose what presents to give to who. They had bought cups as presents. JF's sister was also there and the four of us took a while.

I think it was at least 45 minutes. Along the way GY and KL called us to buy ice cos they didn't have enough and the original ice-pack was leaking badly. They also tried to get us to buy tongs but we couldn't find tongs anywhere so we brought chopsticks. (Eventually they weren't used.)

When we got back, LJ, RH, JK and P had arrived. The fire had started and LY was already cooking some sausages.

JK was buttering the uncooked ones and someone was sitting around.

I don't exactly remember what happened after that but it was basically people taking turns to cook and others would marinate. I called LY 祖師母 cos she was the expert at cooking and LJ was 師傅. (Which also meant that LY was LJ's 娘.)

(I am reading 笑傲江湖 nowadays, which explains my 武俠 thinking.)

Tongs were in desperate need so KL got CW and SY to buy tongs, charcoal and insect repellent. Yes there were red ants and some mosquitoes but personally I didn't see the need for insect repellent since for the whole night I was safe from bites.

The two of them came at around 8 since (1) their class video thingy ended late and (2) they had to stop at Toa Payoh to buy tongs, charcoal and insect repellent. In retrospect, the charcoal was rather wasted since we used quite little of the new packet.

At 8.30 we sang the birthday song for GY and CW.

After that it was more barbecuing. JK discovered sting ray, squid and prawns in the ice box. LJ said he ordered food for 14 people but I strongly doubt so. There was so much food!

The BBQ ended after 10. We tried to challenge by putting our hands into the ice box and see who let's go first.

SY let go of her hand first.

We cleaned and finished around 11. They were delaying and delaying and I got real anxious to get back cos it was rather late. Besides, there was nothing much to do and to think they even had to discuss about who should keep the insect repellent.

Luckily we caught the train cos in another half an hour the train would stop.

~

All in all I had a fun time.

There were things / people that made me unhappy but I did not let that spoil my mood. (Sounds like reflection time, eh.)

TTFN.


7 August 2012:

這個禮拜糟透了。

我知道以下文章hu充滿「negative energy」;中二的時候去雲南我們的「教練」已經勸我們不要成天以消極的方面去思考。可是,這個禮拜實在太糟糕了。

就從這個星期天開始吧。星期天的時候因為某些人的不負責任,差點造成一場流血事件。對於這個事件有人爆發、有人則不聞不問。所以,這個星期天我過得相當的不愉快了。

再來星期一,即昨天。昨天被人家笑我矮。可能在你眼裡我極為小氣,認為我不應該這樣就不滿意。但是也許你不會明白我有時在面對別人時矮人一截的感受。我矮,我不能怪父母。某些程度上也不能怪自己。只能說老天把我成這個樣。我能怪老天嗎?也不能。

雖然至今(除了星期一)沒有人當中取笑我矮,但是我知道有些人還是有意無意的針對這一點揶揄我。有時,我真的真的很羡慕那些高黝帥(tall, dark and handsome)的男人。我知道女生常會說「哦,我們講求的是愛我的男人,長相、高度不是問題。」

但給他們捫心自問:難道著一些他們真的完全不在乎?對,世上還是會有這些女人,但是要尋找這些人如海底撈針。

反之那些高黝帥的男人,他們已經能夠吸引更多的女人了。現在,他們只需要選擇一個他們心儀的。那多簡單。

我嘗試過自娛我的矮。但是有時候自娛的背後卻是無盡的辛酸。對,我笑話自己矮,朋友跟著笑,我也合不攏嘴。我的內心呢?糾成一塊呀。

有些好心的朋友跟我說:甭緊,你看世上還是有很多出名的矮人呀。試問我有他們那樣英俊/有魅力/瀟灑/有才華嗎?沒有,偏偏沒有。

於是乎,我也不能在某個方面鋒芒畢露,盡顯才能。

……我想談到這裡我已經相當的不愉快了。我可不想壞了我的星期二夜晚。於是乎,就這樣吧。明天是國慶前夕。

說真的,我是愛國的。雖然我經常抱怨政府/外來人才/本地人的種種不是,但我是愛國的!我始終認為新加坡是我的家。

唱起國歌來,我也十分自豪。雖然新加坡的國歌的確不如中國的國歌那麼冠冕堂皇,但是我始終覺得新加坡的國歌依然動人、使人打從心底自豪起來。

話題插回去:在這個時期,我覺得自己突然變得篤信宗教。

可是,我的宗教叫我們做人做事不要極端,要走中間之道。我以上的比較,似乎便是走到極端了。怎麼辦?苦惱之極呀。


4 August 2012:

Are leaders born or are leaders nurtured?

Previously when Mr G was still vice-principal, he used to ask us this question. It wasn't an easy question to answer to. And I suppose Mr G would be secretly happy that no one was able to give him a perfect answer, so he could continue to intrigue people with this question.

At a leadership seminar last year, TK asked the speaker this exact question. Frankly speaking, I do not remember the answer that the speaker gave then. However, this question does stick in my mind, and it will continue to do so for a long time.

Today while reading Straits Times, I saw this article by Mr Lawrence Lien. (It's on page D6 if you're interested and haven't already unsubscribed from Straits Times.) He asserts that leaders can be nutured.

The original question asked by Mr G was whether they were nutured; the assertion Mr Lien gives is that they can be nutured. However, I believe I can draw a parallel between the two since they are quite similar.

Our first prime minister Mr Lee Kuan Yew believes that leadership is there from the genes. He thinks that not much can be done to further nurture the person if it is just not in his genes.

Mr Lien believes otherwise. He thinks that while to some extent leadership is within a person's genes, at least one-third of a person can be nurtured for him to be a good leader.

I think this debate over whether it's in the genes or through external grooming is indeed an interesting one. Personally, I am more inclined to support Mr Lien.

In 1984, LKY started the Graduate Mothers' Scheme. It encouraged graduate mothers to pick similarly qualified partners and 'go forth and multiply'. This gained widespread criticism, and after witnessing a huge slide in vote share in the elections on the same year, the GMS was removed a year later.

The GMS shows much LKY believes that talent, and leadership, is in one's genes. He thinks that if graduate women choose graduate men, their children would be born to be smart and proceed to contribute much more to Singapore. Does this reasoning hold?

In some sense, this is related to social mobility. A society with a high social mobility score would mean that people of different classes in society may easily rise or fall to other classes. What does LKY's scheme do to the social mobility of Singapore?

If graduate women listen faithfully to LKY and only look for graduate men, Singapore will see a sharp decline in social mobility.

It is for a fact that children who belong to graduate parents will do better in life. However, this is not related much to their genetic arrangement. Graduates, especially then, have it better than non-graduates. This notion of having a degree is pretty much ingrained in Singaporeans.

Graduates then typically earned more from non-graduates. Simple reasoning will put you through. Companies would prefer graduates because the degree somehow ascertains that they are more capable than those who do not even have the degree. Needless to say, graduates would have better-paying jobs.

From better-paying jobs, the amount in their bank account would be higher than non-graduates who work in, let's say, blue-collar jobs. When their children is born, they would have more money to support them.

And by support, I would mean in terms of sending them to various classes and enrichment programmes. Whereas non-graduate parents can only support their children to a basic level, fulfilling their basic needs while occasionally providing them with other bonuses.

Hence, it is no doubt that most children of graduate parents will perform better than children of non-graduate parents, due to the lack of equal opportunities. However, this is in contrast to LKY's reasoning that it has to due with the genes.

Although I have not done research in the correlation of intelligence and inheritance, I believe that our genes only provide us with traits. Intelligence and values are things that we pick up as we grow older.

If the above mentioned child from non-graduate parents was given equal treatment as the other child (equal tuition, classes, programmes) and the former still performed badly, then yes we may attribute it to genetic traits.

However, this still does not mean that these people are stupid or anything, or that they will not do well. There are always cases of successful entrepreneurs who failed most classes in school, yet grew up and created a booming business.

They are probably just have traits that dictate they are not inclined academically, but in other fields, which entrepreneurship does much to breed such talent.

Going back to the issue of social mobility, our society will just become more and more fragmented if GMS was not removed after a year. There will be distinct classes of children, those belonging to graduate parents and those not. How tragic would that be?

Chances are, children of non-graduate parents would not be able to climb up the social ladder. Most would feel bad about themselves as being the lower class, and would rather believe that they are destined to never succeed much in life.

Bring this whole chunk back to the thing of leadership, does it mean that children will grow up to be better leaders if they enjoy better genes, which in LKY's belief means coming from graduate parents?

I don't think so. I'm sure not every minister or chairman from the government or civil service enjoyed 'good genes', since they came from backgrounds that weren't very fabulous as well. Yet, most were able to perform well and do a good job, which in some ways show they were good leaders.

I agree more with Mr Lien. Good leadership is more nurtured than born. Yes, it is indeed true that some people do have traits that may spur them to work hard and in turn be a better leader.

Just as what Mr Lien pointed out someone who has stellar results in school may eventually end up being a mediocre manager because of his lack of leadership skills. If he gets promoted, it's because of confirmation bias or something similar, unknowingly practised by their bosses.

Values are what people obtain after birth. Values such as determination and perseverance were what LKY had in great amounts, and this helped him helm Singapore in the beginning. Was it as much of a gene thing for him?

A constant observation made by anti-PAP netizens would be that there would be rife nepotism in government bodies. Somehow, this minister would be linked by blood or marriage to that director, and this list goes on and on. While I do not deny this since there are very obvious cases, it was just now that I though of a possible explanation why this was so. (Call me slow if you may.)

Back then when LKY held on to much (perhaps too much) power, he often controlled the HR of various government bodies. With his notion that only an elite few would be able to govern Singapore since only they have the best genes, it is no surprise then that he would try to seek people related by blood.

By his belief, I suppose he is trying to retain as much of people with as good genes as him to serve Singapore. While this idea of his certainly was very noble (to get the best people to serve Singapore), sadly, he developed this flawed judgement and even extended the misjudgement to the creation of GMS.

All in all, leaders are more nurtured in my opinion. Through the previous examples and anecdotes, you may or may not be convinced by me. This post was completed over an hour and a half, during which I was distracted by some comics. Hence, you may notice my track of thoughts waver all over the place. Certainly not good for expository, but oh well.

TTFN.

Incidentally, this theme of 'born or bred' also ties to the 'cause' of homosexuality. Some firmly insist that people choose to be gay because they are perverse, while others simply believe that gay people were born this way, as Lady Gaga would have put it. More food for thought here, on how these two - homosexuality and leadership - seems to be tied to a same central question.


2 August 2012:

One day Tom.

One day, Tom walked into an iron bar. He fainted.

One day, Tom couldn't stand the way things were anymore. So he sat down.

One day, Tom started telling the truth. He couldn't lie while sitting down. (credit to A)

One day, Tom walked into an iron bar. He ordered vodka.

One day, Tom met Anne in an internet cafe. They didn't click.

One day, Tom was really mean to people. He was just being average.

One day, Tom died. He dropped into a colouring tub.

One day, Tom rowed with Anne. He did it on a boat.

One day, Tom stopped listening to Animal. No more deja vus.

One day, Tom read statistics of obese people. He thinks they were rounded.

One day, Tom visited a shrink. He wanted to slim down.

One day, Tom became the chairman. Last time he moved tables.

One day, Tom got bored. He should've been more careful with the drill.

One day, Tom fell asleep. Then he got up.

One day, Tom felt radiant. Now he only has half-life.

One day, Tom got bored. He decided he should never drill again.

One day, Tom watched the Dark Knight. He felt more lights should have been off.

One day, Tom watched the Dark Knight again. He went to dim sum lights first.

One day, Tom got lost. He was amazed.

One day, Tom took bus no. 11. He walked.

One day, Tom screwed things up. Seems like he couldn't use a screwdriver besides a drill.

One day, Tom stopped using a table. After all he was now chairman.

One day, Tom heard barking from the neighbour's. He stared at their oak tree in alarm.

One day, Tom got ticked off by Anne. He used to be on her to-do list.

One day, Tom went for a walk with the dog. He still walked into the iron bar.

One day Tom.



aboutme.

From Singapore. 20 years of age. Blogs as and when inspiration comes, in British English (and Singlish), Traditional Chinese and (hopefully) Russian. Not a lifestyle blogger, expect posts to be serious, dull or even obscure. I enjoy comedy, in particular British humour.



interests.

[more or less in order] medicine | forensics | theatre | modern world history | typography (including style and grammar) | visual design | Taiji | Chinese language and literature | Mandarin pop (and singing) | Apple products.



typography.

PT Serif for main text and links. Ubuntu Condensed for dates, post titles and sidebar headings. Both fonts from Google Web Fonts.



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