31 January 2012:
吾日三省吾身：為人謀而不忠乎？與朋友交而不信乎？傳不習乎？
爾曰重信。但今出爾反爾。吾甚詫，覺悲憤。定後以不重蹈覆轍。
28 January 2012:
親愛的寶貝老婆，
首先，對不起。我好久都沒有理睬你了，只有今天才帶你出來。新年期間你都被鎖起來，想想是挺可憐的。剛才剛看到你，我就有一陣心痛。你比以前不一樣了。以前，你還有亮麗的外表，偶爾還能反光。現在，你黯然失色。
最糟的是，你現在沒有頭髮了！其實，你幾個月前就已經沒有頭髮了；可是我一直忽略這一點。別人的寶貝老婆都有頭髮，只有你沒有，我希望你不會因此而嫉妒、傷心。我一定會儘快幫你找個亮眼的頭髮給你的。（你喜歡藍色的頭髮嗎？）
我好久沒幫你抹油了，寶貝。難怪你現在的樣子是如此。剛才見到你，我就想，你原本不是這樣啊！原來又是我的錯，我沒有為你抹油。去年底的時候就應該幫你抹油啦，可是怎知道我去上海，把你留在新加坡。
今天，我差點找不到你啊，寶貝。你和別人的寶貝藏在一塊，躲在下面。我還以為你真的不見啦，不要我啦，把我急死。幸好最終找到你藏身的地點，我心中的石頭落下來了。
對了。我還得謝謝你呢。謝謝老婆你如此的重，才能鍛煉我的手腕之力。你也比別人高，我沒記錯的話應該是0.79米吧。當然還是比我矮……
寶貝我不記得幾時第一次接觸你，不過大概也有2年多吧。我們的感情蠻不錯呢，希望能繼續持久下去。
最愛你了，我的寶貝太極劍。
27 January 2012:
A Coincidence
In the morning, Sophie woke up and took a look at her calendar. December 12! That would mean five days to her boyfriend Jack's birthday. During her birthday months ago, Jack had planned an elaborate celebration that ended with a romantic candlelight dinner on the Singapore Flyer. Now that it was her boyfriend's birthday, Sophie had to reciprocate with something equal, or even better. She decided to hunt the shops for something that Jack would like. Sophie dressed up and headed for Marina Square.
~
Lily was putting on her makeup when her phone beeped. It was an alarm reminder about December 17. She placed her lipstick on the dressing table and took a look at her phone's display. Oh! It was her boyfriend Jack's birthday! How could she have forgotten about it? Luckily there was the reminder she set a long time ago, Lily thought to herself. Lily knew Jack was fond of designer brands, so she thought of going to boutiques at Marina Square to search for something Jack would like.
~
Sophie entered the mall and a particular brand popped up in her mind. Jack had casually mentioned that he liked ties of this brand. She took the lift up to the third floor. Lily entered the mall and remembered this tie that Jack liked a lot. However Lily had forgotten which floor the boutique was located, and had to check the directory before taking the lift up to the third floor.
Sophie entered the boutique and a particular tie caught her attention. This was the exact one Jack had told her about. Sophie beckoned the saleswoman over and told her to wrap the tie up; she was going to buy it regardless of its exorbitant price.
"Wait!" Such a sound shrieked through the boutique. People watched in shock and disgust as Lily rushed to where Sophie and the saleswoman were, nearly knocking down bottles of perfume. "I saw that first!" Lily was huffing and puffing and her face was red by now. The saleswoman was at a loss; who should she hand the tie to?
"Here's an extra $100 for you. Pack the tie, quick." Sophie thrust a hundred-dollar note at the saleswoman and looked at Lily coldly, with a sense of contempt in her eyes. Lily gasped in horror and took out four fifty-dollar notes at the saleswoman and ordered: "Take $200 and give that tie to me."
The saleswoman looked at the two women who were on the verge of bursting a vessel. She creaked weakly: " Look, I can't do it this way ..."
Smack! Lily landed a slap on Sophie's cheek. "You bitch, why won't you just let me have the tie?"
Sophie returned the slap, screaming wildly at the same time. Tears were bursting out of their eyes in anger, ruining their makeup, and vulgarities were hurled freely between the two of them as they cooked up a nasty brawl. Customers started to leave the boutique, which was a good choice since it was not before long that perfume bottles were used by the two women as weapons against each other.
The saleswoman stared in disbelief, and it was a while before she realised to call her manager out from the storeroom. The loafing manager was rudely awakened from his snooze, and was about to chide the saleswoman but rushed out immediately once he heard glass breaking outside the storeroom. The manager was able to stop the brawl before his whole stock of perfume was destroyed between Sophie and Lily.
After much mediation, Lily decided to budge a little. She would call her boyfriend Jack and ask for his opinion. To her delight, Jack decided he would go there and take a look, since he was around the area. It wasn't long before Jack arrived.
"Jack?" mumbled Sophie. A sense of embarrassment, panic, and despair crept to Jack's face. His legs were rooted to the ground. Sophie and Lily looked at each other; being smart women they knew what had happened without much guessing.
The manager buried his face in his hands as Sophie and Lily finished his only stock of premium perfume on Jack while he tried sheepishly to leave.
This is an original story written by me for an assignment. I personally liked it a lot, and hope that you would like it too. :)
26 January 2012:
我是一個很厚臉皮的人。
外面的流言蜚語，往往都是蜚短流長。所以我跟不管了，乾脆不管了。
反正我覺得自己行得正做得正，沒什麽怕。讓他們說去吧，所有的ублюдки們。
25 January 2012:
關於春晚時的王菲
各位先聽聽這首歌：
然後再聽聽這首現場版：
你覺得當中的表演，王菲的表現如何呢？我本身是覺得，她的「天籟之音」的確沒發揮好，有失以前的水準。
今天的《海峽時報》和《聯合早報》的休閒版都刊登了關於王菲表演的新聞。兩邊都說王菲被炮轟，人們都說她如巨星隕落，不如從前了。
也許，她真的退步了。不過依我看，她其實沒多少退步，而是歌曲的調標的太高啦。她出場時所唱的第一、二句，我從她眼中似乎看出了緊張、焦急。對她這麼一個天后來說，應該沒什麽理由緊張的。即使說她幾年沒演唱了，可是畢竟在去年辦完她的個人演唱會，狀態照理來說應該都恢復過來了吧。
那是為何呢？所以我說，她唱歌的調太高啦。當然，你若要興師問罪的話，她還能做罪魁禍首。原因為她在彩排時若覺得調太高，為何不立即叫音樂人修改呢？當然，對她最有利的理由是，她在彩排時沒問題，是音樂人自己在正式表演中出差錯。不過這些音樂通常不是現場伴奏，是錄製好的-1曲，所以音樂人出錯的幾率不會很高。
饒了一圈，又兜回原點：王菲的唱功真出了問題了嗎？我不知道。不過在她的新加坡站演唱會時，第一首歌《約定》的頭幾個字，的確有些抖音。是幸好當時出場的形式做得好不壯觀，我想人們都忽略掉了那個小錯誤。
這次呢？她沒那麼幸運啦。我還是希望王菲能夠恢復她昔日的厲害。我繼續挺著王菲。
我愛阿菲。
然後再聽聽這首現場版：
你覺得當中的表演，王菲的表現如何呢？我本身是覺得，她的「天籟之音」的確沒發揮好，有失以前的水準。
今天的《海峽時報》和《聯合早報》的休閒版都刊登了關於王菲表演的新聞。兩邊都說王菲被炮轟，人們都說她如巨星隕落，不如從前了。
也許，她真的退步了。不過依我看，她其實沒多少退步，而是歌曲的調標的太高啦。她出場時所唱的第一、二句，我從她眼中似乎看出了緊張、焦急。對她這麼一個天后來說，應該沒什麽理由緊張的。即使說她幾年沒演唱了，可是畢竟在去年辦完她的個人演唱會，狀態照理來說應該都恢復過來了吧。
那是為何呢？所以我說，她唱歌的調太高啦。當然，你若要興師問罪的話，她還能做罪魁禍首。原因為她在彩排時若覺得調太高，為何不立即叫音樂人修改呢？當然，對她最有利的理由是，她在彩排時沒問題，是音樂人自己在正式表演中出差錯。不過這些音樂通常不是現場伴奏，是錄製好的-1曲，所以音樂人出錯的幾率不會很高。
饒了一圈，又兜回原點：王菲的唱功真出了問題了嗎？我不知道。不過在她的新加坡站演唱會時，第一首歌《約定》的頭幾個字，的確有些抖音。是幸好當時出場的形式做得好不壯觀，我想人們都忽略掉了那個小錯誤。
這次呢？她沒那麼幸運啦。我還是希望王菲能夠恢復她昔日的厲害。我繼續挺著王菲。
我愛阿菲。
23 January 2012:
祝大家萬事如意、心想事成。
大家huat啊。
21 January 2012:
Единственной постоянной является изменение.
現在的時間是晚上的11點44分了，我估計當我寫完這篇文章時，應該會過凌晨時分，即進入了1月20日。
最近有很多事情在發生。我上次寫文章是在1月13日，算算看也大概有6、7天啦。這個星期里有好多的事情……
週一到週五，照常的上課，除了週五慶新春。週五的慶祝有點另類，今年有歌唱比賽，也有班級的撈魚生。上回說過了，我參加了歌唱比賽的試唱，可惜沒能晉級。我不後悔，因為後悔其實也沒用。
Ｊ友和Ｇ友分別贏了高年級和低年級組的冠軍。我非常替他們感到開心，他們贏得實至名歸。特別覺得Ｇ友非常了不起。剛才在禮堂獻唱時麥克風出了問題，她起初是有些慌，不過還能即使說了些帶動氣氛的話。
慶祝結束后，我聽到有一群男生談論著Ｇ友，內容略有猥褻的含義。這完全在預料之中。
現在說班級的撈魚生。說真的我本來並不覺得這個概念會成功，因為我以為全部人都不會參加。沒想到反應式挺熱烈的。我們全班分兩桌撈魚生，撈個風生水起。我們班里的感情是有略微增進……不過我不想太早下定論。
我在星期一的時候在推特上隨便的瀏覽別人的帳戶，看到一個博客的鏈接。我真的很慶倖，當時點擊了那個鏈接。那個博客是一名男生寫的，年紀應該有18歲吧。他目前有女朋友，家人都知道這件事。據我所知，他們（家人）是抱著中立態度。
他在博客里說到為何有些情侶會在1、2月后分手。他說，很多的男生（或者女生，其實為主動者）都給被動者發簡訊或打電話時，爲了討好對方，往往會表現出最好的一面。負面的態度會被緊緊的掩蓋起來。過不久，被動者會被心動，主動者就「順理成章」地和他／她做男／女朋友。
不過，不久后他們擺出的「好人樣」會慢慢瓦解。他們的壞習慣會露出來，性格的另一面會出現……如果雙方都非常討厭彼此的另一面，過了不久，兩個人將分開。博主提到，他和女朋友並不是以進入戀情作為交往前提，他們之前只想做好朋友。只是後來雙方都意識到原來彼此都愛彼此，就是這樣。
我是一個非常硬心腸的人，可是竟然被這個簡單的博文給感動到。我是真的，真的被感動到。也許你會說好朋友變成情侶這個「路線」已經是陳詞濫調，每個人都是這麼說的。不過，我還是相信它的存在。很多人都否認自己在追求另一個人，拼命套上「我和他（她）只是好朋友」的藉口。這不算以上博主說的。這種情況下，你心裡明明就想要有天與他（她）進入戀情。
所以話說回來，我這幾天拼命的在想：我為何會喜歡上她呢？
以前有人這麼問過我，我說「她什麽都好。」現在我知道，世上的每個人都有缺點，只看幾時暴露給你看罷了。不知道我是否受博文影響，開始對她吹毛求疵，不過我發覺她並沒我想像中的那樣。我不想詳細說明她到底哪裡「不好」，因為那對她非常不公平，畢竟這是我對她的個人評價，我沒資格這麼評價別人，所以收在心裡頭就好了。
Ｔ友一直勸我放棄吧，反正我自己也不想進入戀情。說真的，我是想。可是，沒有金錢沒有時間，怎麼來戀情？以前我聽過有些故事，女方不願投奔男方，就因他沒錢沒車。起初我會覺得她太市儈了，可是現在我並不那麼反對這個觀點。當然，我知道世上還存在著一股純潔的真愛，不過能夠「純愛」的人目前少之又少了。
我不知道日後，我和她到底會是怎樣的。說不定，待我們到了初級學院／理工學院后，彼此都不聯絡。十年後，說不定她只庫存在我的腦海的一點。我不知道，我現在不想知道。
距離Ｏ水準沒有多少時間了，我可不想日日想著這些。我只想考個好成績，對得起自己，也對得起所有對我予以厚望的人。去年我的Ｏ水準華文成績拿回來了，是個A1。我真的不能說這是預料之內的事，因為我很清楚，自己的作文最起碼偏題。再說，我連結尾都沒完成。
今年我將考高級華文。Ｗ師說了優等率從華文的70+%降到了45%。這是非常驚人和嚇人的。我不希望自己在45%以外。幸虧，今年我又有一個很好的老師。雖然我是有些傷心，教我中三的老師不能和我們一起「升上來」，不過學校規定了，我們不能反對。
Ｗ師以比較另類的方式教我們華文，這讓我非常感興趣。相信的方法我且不多說，反正自己也沒能清楚的解釋出來。總之，我相信他一定對我們班同學起著很大的作用。
剛才我說到感情事，現在說到友情。友情這方面，我向來極為不喜歡討論，因為我知道自己在這方面是個失敗者。雖然我在學校里可以跟100人揮手問好，不過我知道他們只都是「路人甲」。經過，說聲嗨，之後擦肩而過。就是這樣。
我是有反思過，為何我的友情會處理的如此失敗？可能是我的態度吧。有人說過我在處事待人時表現得非常驕傲自滿。是因為這個原因嗎？我不清楚。不過，我是有盡力的在改正了。比起以前，我收斂多了，也開始發覺自己以前說過的一些話可能是有些咄咄逼人。
我幾乎沒有一個「固定朋友」。所謂固定朋友，即那些99%的時候都會在你身旁支持你的那種。如果你給我出個情景，我不慎掉入海裡，需請朋友救命，我真的不知道該叫誰好呢？
要是叫那些平時不很熟的，他們沒理由幫我。而比較熟的，全部都有了自己另外的朋友，不會理會我。看來，我只有死路一條啦。
今天我在慶祝后和前年的同班男生出去吃午餐。如果我沒問，自己便會孤零零的一個人飄著到處流蕩。每一次，我都必須主動問人家。我也瞭解到一個交友的失敗者，或許不會被別人理睬。所以，我不逃避，我問。可是，問啊問啊，有時聽到的都是拒絕。
你知道嗎？有時候，我其實蠻想做學校里的書呆子。他們雖然是被眾人取笑，不過他們在自己的世界里。而且因為「同類」稀少，所以他們成天和自己人在一塊，多麼適合。最起碼，在彼此間，他們能開心。
而我呢？我既不是學校里的「名流」，甚至累計一些討厭者，又不是上述的書呆子。這麼說吧：我就是個局外人。其他人們都在成局，我卻被孤立在外。偶爾當我成功的擠進局中，又會被擠出來，或有時必須自動退出。
每天在學校，我儘量地讓自己開心。早上時到辦公室幫忙時，跟我認識的老師問好，這也是辦法之一。但是有時，這個方法並不管用，特別是進入課室后。課室裡頭的環境是不一樣的。我不會說它極其複雜，也可以說明它不存在課室政治，但是總之環境是有些改變。
我的身邊有一些較好的朋友，幾乎清一色都是女的。這也可能是為何，人們經常批評我是個花花公子。說真的，我毫無調戲的意思。人們說久了，我也懶得解釋，反正那無濟於事。不過，我並無感受。爲什麽教好的朋友幾乎都是女生？女生容易溝通，而且可以聊天的話題也較廣泛。有些男生如果不是過於幼稚，就是過於嚴肅，讓人不舒服。
我其實還有更多話想說，可是現在的時間是凌晨41分了。我再不入眠，明天將會以行尸走肉出現。可能下次待我又「情到深處」再繼續吧。
Когда люди в беде, я предлагаю чтобы помочь. Когда я в беде, все избегает меня.
13 January 2012:
I went for the audition of Dragon Voice, and did not make it to the next round.
To be honest, I am <5% sad. But I do regret some things I did not do ...The audition was held at the tearoom. There were three judges: Mr D. T, Ms J. M, and Mr D. T. The scene was totally like American Idol, except of course there wasn't an elaborate set-up and all that.
The process was actually rather fast: you go in, Mr T asks you for your name and song title, and you can begin. So I started singing this song:
It's a new song by 孫燕姿: 明天的記憶 (2011) in her album 世說心語. The song's very addictive, which is a reason why I chose this song.
But I realised after the audition that this song actually wasn't that good to be used ... I'm not saying that her song is no good, but I don't think I performed that well with this song. Sure there were some parts which involved some techniques, but this genre wasn't that suitable for me.
In retrospect (LOL chim much), I probably should have done something that I have done for 3+ years: 天黑黑 by 孫燕姿 (c'mon, if you're expecting some other singer ...) I'm so much more familiar with that song and there's a part where it could show my "prowess". (I really don't know how else to describe it.)
Oh well, it's no point regretting for all that. On the plus side, I was told that I have a lot of potential. I'm not saying this just to brag about anything, but it sure is good receiving encouragement even though I didn't make it to the next round. (I sure hope that isn't a standard line said to everyone, hahah.)
Mr T also said that my tone and pitch was there, which made me happy too, cos at least I get these two elements. But I was told that I was trying to be "too perfect" and shouldn't have done that.
It was the same from 3 years ago when I went to PESA: the feedback given to me was that I focused too much on pronuncing the words accurately, until I neglected other aspects of public speaking. It's a little uncanny that 3 years on I am given the same feedback; of course, it also shows that I should really work on this too.
... Did I make this post become so sombre? I hope not~ Anyway, like what S said, it's the process, not the result. So that's what I'm gonna set out to do: not gonna shy away from singing but continue to hone it further ... Which was roughly what Mr T told me to do as well. :)
TTFN.
9 January 2012:
This is gonna be a quick post to rant about some stuff.
The CCA points are out. And this is where people's character starts to show.
Now when teachers ask for any volunteers, the hands raise highly. And it's all because of the damned CCA points!
Call me naive, but I strongly despise people who do things just to get benefits. C'mon, some leadership or service roles are there for you to experience the feeling of helping people out or leading them. It's not bloody hell for getting points!
Which is why, I was very angry until I forgot myself and scolded the f-word today. I know it's wrong, but I couldn't control myself. Someone is trying to be a class leader just for the bloody sake of points.
Maybe you only have 1 pathetic point in your certificate. That's why you are so bloody desperate to clutch every single point that comes your way. Thankfully you did not succeed.
Urgh.
7 January 2012:
"I say IT, you say boomz."
And so I am back from the Sec 4 level camp.To tell you the truth, I was very unwilling to go for this camp. It was supposed to let our class bond more with each other, but I was tired by 3 consecutive days of Orientation. Besides, I felt that having this camp won't really make our class get any more bonded.
Which was more or less true. But I'll get to that later.
Before setting off, I received a message from A, which most probably is sent to the whole EXCO, about how we should step up more and lead our respective classes. (Of course, that's just a paraphrase since I can't remember her exact words.)
And I was thinking to myself: Is that possible in my class? Can I really step up and lead my class? Previously in the Sec 3 Level Camp, I was merely a participant. Even my trainers then said that I was too quiet and needed to participate more.
This time, I resolved to change it. No doubt, I was a little quiet (and unhappy with some people / things) at the start. But I was pretty much "open" during Ice-breaking Games. Of course, I would give credit to D. It was her - with her never-ending bouts of enthusiasm. She made me more encouraged to step up and try and lead the class.
There were still moments where I was so tired that I became a bit "irresponsible" and left the class alone. I admit that there were times where I actually should have prompted them to do something, but left it as it was.
I feel satisfied that finally, I have the confidence to lead my class, at least in small parts. Previously, I would only lead groups that were smaller than me. It's not because I would boss over them, but it's so that I feel slightly more confident.
I know, I'm still rather self-conscious, and it's no good. Perhaps not as many people do judge me, and I'm imagining their negative judgements about me. So this time, I managed to overcome this "barrier".
I'm not trying to say that, oh, now I've stepped up as a leader so I am gonna boss around the class. I'm just glad that I've achieved something that I've set out to do. Furthermore, as a councillor, I am expected to be able to lead others, isn't it?
Like what my trainer said, everyone is a leader and a follower. Even though I led my class slightly, I will still willingly sit down and be a follower if need be. But of course, I would "make noise" if I really think that the "leader" is not suitable.
... Back to the point about how the class is still not "properly" bonded. It's a fact: there is still a presence of cliques in our class. It's not that I'm strongly against cliques or anything. It's just that when people are in cliques, they neglect almost everyone else that's not in their clique.
Hopefully this situation will improve ...?
1 January 2012:
Happy New Year!
新年快樂！Selemat Tahun Baru!
С Новым Годом!