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30 September 2010:

there is no need to get so sarcastic; if you don't like me, tell it to my face.

Actually, this title pretty much sums up what I have to say.
It's been a while since I have been troubled by this issue. (If you don't know what I am talking about, read my old posts.) Now, I feel it's coming back a little.
I know that I can be quite irritating at times, but feel that there is no need for you to treat me this way. You do not have to be so sarcastic, "scolding" your friends to let me get the message.
Since you wanted to play this sarcasm game, don't blame me if I play it with you. I suppose you know that I can be very sarcastic if I want, it's just that I have stopped being as sarcastic as I was last time.
Instead, it's now you. You are the one that is being very sarcastic now. I don't know: is this retribution in one way or another? Last time I was sarcastic towards you, so now you are repaying me.
Nevertheless, I sincerely hope that you are only doing this to me. Not because I enjoy getting suan-ed, but it's because I think no one really deserves that much sarcasm that you are giving. I admit that I do use sarcasm one in a while, but it's not like you now.
You have been more "abusive" and manipulative. I placed abusive under quotation marks, because it is not exactly true. I know that you are just "playing around", but surely there must be a limit? You tore someone's shirt three times; then apologise, is this being sincere and all that?
I can't limit your behaviour, and will most probably irritate you if I "persuade" you. I am in no right to persuade you; you are better than me in a lot of ways. However, I don't think that you should be doing what you are now. I think it is very disrespectful.
You became very mischievious; that is alright, but so have you been cunning. I feel bad typing them out, so I am not going to. I would just like to let you know that you have been doing the things that you don't like me to do as well.
The girls did make comments previously; I do not if you are feigning ignorance, or if you do not care. You have been shaming yourself actually. Too bad if you do not know.

In other news, no news is not good news.


25 September 2010:

以前的美好。
以前的美好,以前有美好嗎?
人們說童年的事人人忘不掉,因為那太精彩了。那也是你第一次做很多事情。自然地,你的腦袋不會輕易地把這些的回憶忘掉。
那如果你的童年記憶是遠離家鄉呢?許多人都在小時候移民他國,這沒怎麼樣。
但如果你以為你遠離家鄉是爲了幹活而不是呢?
在世界的一些角落,兒童賣淫的事件仍然存在。
在新加坡,這個現象為零。這製造了假象:兒童賣淫根本不存在了。
錯,它還存在。

[This post was inspired by a Straits Times report. The track presented is 給小孩, sang by 田馥甄 and 林宥嘉. Please listen to the song, especially if you understand it. Wait for it to load.]


24 September 2010:

am now studying history and it is really an interesting subject.

Really, it is. I don't get it, why others can say that History is boring? It may be boring to learn, but it is never boring to understand. :)
Anyways, so now I am typing out important details into a powerpoint. I find that this works quite well for me. :)
Somehow, I need to do something like that for subjects such as History, to understand and remember better. Last time, I used mindmaps. They worked quite well too.
Today is Stephanie's birthday, so half of this post is going to her. Haha.
So yea, I must say the mood was quite sad at first. Because nobody was to mention to her anything about it, it was part of the surprise that the girls were trying to give her. Although I wasn't part of this, but I too did not spoil their surprise. Haha.
At the end of the day, then I passed her a small black card. :) I think I should choose ink pens myself next time, they almost made me decide to redo. As you know, I am a perfectionist. In the end, because of some reasons, I decided to not redo.
Well, it wasn't that screwed after all haha. Glad she liked it. :)
Oh, today was quite remarkable for Section 3 haha. During recess duty today, then we had the whole section (S1 and S2s) to be stationed at the canteen. Looks intimidating, eh? Well, maybe not lah after all haha.
Somehow, I think we managed to spot more people. But whoa one girl really very irritating. She is LH's classmate. At first, she smuggled the cookies (the chocolate ones, rather nice). When LH stopped her near the LT (I don't know why there), she talked cra* with him for a while. Then if I'm not wrong XY went up there too. And I think QX was there also. Finally, I went there. She was still giving LH cra*, which made me a bit irritated (since we were wasting time), so I just told her straight what to do. Then she went back to the canteen.
真的没想到,她竟然还带出别的事物!!!wah ... okay lah I'm not angry, just tired about it. If I'm not wrong, I didn't really care anymore, the second time. I think I went back to the canteen or somehting like that. Because after all, duty was going to be over soon.
Heard about RY today. Okay, let me offer something blunt: how could she have become a councillor, if what said was true?! I really don't understand. Disclaimer: by the above statement, I am not trying to mean that I am very good at it, but I think that as a councillor one should not do what she did. I have a burning temptation to spill it all out, but I think some hiding is needed.
From the start, I didn't think that she was very good. Of course, at the start, I do not go into it and start analysing people, but I felt that she was slightly different. I still remember the first time I went into the Students' Council room (is it called that?), it wasto settle S0 stuff. And it was partly because of her.
Well, maybe I was too harsh then, because she was new and all that. What about now? Who does she think she is? A councillor, no doubt. Does that give her the right to do what she did? I might sound very sombre, but I think as a senior (to the S1s at least), she is setting a very bad example. No wonder she [*****] (string of words, not some vulgar words lah).
I said last time on Twitter that I think the new S1s are a way of motivation to us. I don't think that applies to her. Whoa. Look what I've did: rambled on about it. This post was supposed to be (half, haha) for Stephanie. I think I have just covered her part, with all this. I shouldn't have, actually.
Okay, never mind. What else did I want to talk about in this post? Oh yes, the exams. O.O
Exams are starting in less than a week (I think?). Somehow, I feel that the S2 cohort is not as heated in preparation. Or could it be all of them are secretly studying at home?! Haha, whatever it is, I don't care.
I really need a way to combat distraction. Examples: Youtube. Yup, everytime I think it's going to be the last video, I end up watching the next video on the reel. I am very easily susceptible to temptation.
I am now seriously trying to consider not using Twitter for the time being. It's actually easy to avoid it totally (by not typing the address), but for me, I am not able to pull myself away from the website once I have logged in. There will always be other tweets coming in, and I will get distracted. If this tweet comes with a video, then ... you know what are mean.
YouTube + Twitter = [...]
Okay, have blogged about quite a lot for now. It's 2318 here in Singapore (in case you're from the US), and it's about time I go off soon. It's about time to sleep. When I wake up tomorrow, there will be F1 at night. Oh that was so random. I tried to think of something comical but couldn't. Wateva, ciao~


23 September 2010:

chinese oral today, I think I did badly.

很多人都說我可以不用準備口試,進去隨便講講就可以了。
他們真的錯了。
基礎再怎麼穩固的人,難免都需要一點點的複習。
我們在很久前就知道口試的詳細日期,不過我一直沒有去準備。
現在我真的很後悔。
我深知自己的口試能力到哪裡。
就如老師說的,我的表達沒有問題。
可是,我的內容方面就不行了。
會話題目本來有很多東西可以講的,不過我就是說不出什麽。
對自己實在太失望了。
我其實可以做得更好的。
不要為打翻的牛奶而哭泣。
不過我實在覺得可惜。
咳……一切太遲了。
成績已經寫下去了,說不定今天/明天就打進系統了。
我的高級華文的成績的一部份,就這麼定了。
當初,我特別的呵護我的喉嚨。
在這之前,我的喉嚨的狀態不是很好。
沒想到,今天我的喉嚨沒事,反而是我的腦袋沒「呵護」。

In other news,
Heard news from BL today that one of my friends is not doing well in her studies.
Really felt shocked. I did know previously that her results weren't the best, but I never expected it to be this way. From what BL said of her (which he should know best because he sits beside her in class), she would sleep often in class. Teachers do not care anymore.
I really feel bad, for not knowing earlier. Maybe I could have done something to help her. Like, maybe persuade her to study or something like that. I know very well that chances are slim of her suddenly improving. Still, miracles do happen, and I could have tried to have a miracle.
Exams are next week; judging from what BL said, I don't think she is prepared at all. Perhaps, she hasn't even started revision. I really feel worried for her. Although this year is my streaming year, and I should be worried for myself first. But then again, it seems like her situation is worse than me. BL said something about retaining. I don't think (or rather, I hope not) she will be that bad as to be retained, but if she is, I think it's not going to be good on her.
We've heard it all too often: the retainee will lose motivation, etc. Then he / she will not be able to focus in class too. And then it'll be bad. Again. Now, I'm really fretting. How can I help her? I really think there must be someway that she can be helped, right?
I guess I can only hope for her then.


20 September 2010:

This is my second post in "good" English.

Hopefully, this good habit can continue in my blog. It's not a bad blogging style, isn't it?

I think today's post shall be just an update on my life recently. So, everything's fine, but the focus would be the new Sec1 councillors. (In case you don't know, councillors = "prefects" + more) My section has 6 new people, 4 girls and 2 boys. Of them all, I personally know R, since she's from wushu. So that's not a problem.

It's the other 5 that I will have to get to know. Well, I think I will get to know the 2 boys better. Somehow, it seems like boys will be closer to boys, isn't it? Haha, age old thing. Really very conincidental. The two of them (boys) both have siblings that are / were in the SC. So, in a way, it's like they are related.

Tomorrow will be the first section meeting with this batch of people. I'm quite excited and waiting for it now. With our (super crazy) HQ and SK (the nothing wrong one, haha), I think it's gonna be quite fun. :) The Sec1s have another 3 years to go, so let's see how.

I heard that some Sec1s were in just borderline. (I know, this sentence isn't properly phrased. Whatever.) I don't want to say who, well, actually I don't know who. Maybe I will know soon enough. Because if they are really not as good, I think it would be quite obvious to tell. After all, I have been in for a while. Not boasting or anything, yeah? But still, I will still treat them all the same.

Unless they make me not to.

Whoa. That sentence sounds very sombre, right? Well, I think it's part of the process. In every batch, there will be people that you just won't like. No matter what you do, they will not be very responsive, or in some way or another, not be friendly to you. I have had such people in the past 2 batches, so I really hope that this situation will not repeat again. After all, it's better to have more friends than enemies right?

All right, I don't know what to blog about. So that's all!! :D


19 September 2010:

yay more people are viewing my blog, at least I know I have recurring visitors.

For those of you that constantly read my blog, I suppose you should know by now that my posts follow a certain pattern: long titles (only in English), and posts in either English or Traditional Chinese. One thing, though. Previously, my posts in English were very abbreviated, something like those kind of English Singaporeans would use in text messages. Somehow, someone doubted my grasp of the language.

He questioned whether I was only proficient in Chinese, since it seems that my Chinese is better than English. Well, I am not angry or what, but I have decided to type my posts in the future in proper English / Chinese, with the abbreviations taking up at most 5% of my posts. Also, I shall aim to have at least 2 posts a week, but only 1 post a day.

Haha, you might think, why am I so serious about it? It's not as if I am a professional blogger. I am only a student juggling studies, blogging, and many other stuffs. Well, actually, I don't think only professional bloggers should do that. To me, amatuer bloggers should have a rough plan too. This way, with this plan, I would have self-control too. :) I would not spend so much time on my blog.

For those of you also following me on Twitter, (if you haven't, please do!) I will still be updating regularly. I don't think Twitter is such a distraction as comparesd to Facebook, so that's why I did not disable Twitter.

That's all for now! Keep visiting, and remember my new site address!! :)

[this was a delayed post.]


16 September 2010:

my feelings now r like tis graph.


up n down n up n down.
anw.
tmr having mid-autumn duty til 9.
O.O
quite late eh
then agn, mayb nt so diff cos oni usher.

i tink blogger's stats got problem.
it says i hav 2 pageviews ytd.
i noe u mite say cos nobody wan read, but den it has been lidat 4 3 days leh.
HAH.
so i tink someth wrong lorh.
scare me.

read an article abt 羅志祥.
or 小豬.
anw, 大大的標題:「小豬:我就是娘!」
relates 2 me.
las time shane dawson oso said smth lidat.
he hates e ppl tt misuse the word "gay".
nowadays ppl r using it jus 2 say tt a person is very ... ahem.
but, tt doesnt mean tt he prefers a pe**s instead of a va***a rite?!
(gosh, i m geting v crude)
i duno wat's e prob w/ ppl tt cal others "gay" the whole time lorh.
seems easy 2 call, but it's v not nice wat.
One guy once called me "gay".
Now I hear he is "gay": the prefer-pe**s kind. O.O
Okay, maybe that is kind of scary, cos he is only 14.
So if the rumours are really true, ... O.O!
Anyway, ha, just deserts.


I think believing in Buddhism has made me a better person.
Slightly, haha.
At least now I wil 三思而行.
But, actually, I still do have a lot of bad habits.
So I do need to get rid of them.
Wish me luck, yeah?


10 September 2010:

i used 2 tink tt it was okay if i did nt noe HTML5 yet.

"it was new, nt so fast", or so i tot.
now more n more sites r using it.
:(
i feel so fail for nt cathcing up.
now my IT skills r lagging big time.
i realy nid to read up more on HTML5, jQuery, and all tt web2.0 has 2 offer.
haiz.
all tt i knew prev is bcoming obsolete soon.
i feel so sad, lol.
it's like, u noe much, suddenly gone.
thou it stil can b used lah, but den it's so diff.
wen web2.0 n the like rules e world, i'll be so damn dead.
i nid to catch up.


8 September 2010:

my blog skin is finally more or less presentable. :D

some things to say:
this post shall b used 2 credit all the sources tt i hv used lah.
den oso leh, erm, abt e blogger stats thingy.
somehow it's like a form of encouragement (LOL lik i m doin somethin gr8),
anw ... so yea i shall try 2 write more stuffs lah.
dun wan 2 bore my viewers.
surprisingly quite alot.
haha always tot my blog v dead, no ppl visit, oni toking 2 myself.
竟然還有遠從中國的人來看。haha
but stil, oni blogging in eng n trad chi.
i tink i shall write up on the aboutme part.
:)
den resume hw., stil waiting 4 some1 to chat w/ me. haha


1 September 2010:

this is one day that i m having 2 blog posts. n so mayb hiatus again.

yup.
time of e yr.
am v scared of eoy (possible) results.
shal try to eliminate all disturbances.
(n b anti-social. jk.)
alrd shut off fb 4 a while.
tt was easy, tot i wld b so addicted i wont stick 2 it.
but havent since then. :)
yay :)
i tink mayb i'l hold on to twitter.
only.
cos it's realy quite interesting, ya noe?
anw ...
so since tis blog is having a hiatus, i m gona hav a forecast/



1. results generaly higher than c5, w/ eng n chi geting a1.
2. b much btr in wushu. conquer fear of jumping. stop looking lik an idiot dur 難度動作.
3. tidy up "my docs". itis cloging up my comp.
4. not use fb so much.
5. get xn's blog skin ready. mus prove



so let's c hw many i wil do til my nex post on tis blog.
okay since it's a long time, i m gona leave smth:
first time in my blog. an image.
haha, a "smart one".
(click on e pic, u wont b able 2 c a ting in e thumbnail)
fuly stated source of img, so pls dun fault me.
oh but i did "advertise" myself, haha.
okay.
til next time.


:

十年樹木,百年樹人

昨天在中正慶祝完教師節后,到了道南。
那裡也沒怎麼的變,只是校長換了。
大多數教過我的老師仍然持教鞭,令我好開心。
見了小六教我的戴老師。還是個「老頑童」。
哈哈
幽默感仍在,跟以前一樣。
當初聽到了他退休的傳聞,嚇到。
如果他就這麼離開道南,沒留下任何聯絡,那我們這些想要謝謝他的學生該如何是好呢?
幸好,那並非事實。
誰這麼無聊恨不得他走啊?
總之,碰到了他,與他談了許久。
在一旁的R的以廢話來迎接他。
真的懷念以前只有四個科目的日子。
英華數科。
連美術都不算。
現在還多加了地理、歷史的。
接著見到了數學老師。本想好好謝謝她,可她不懂在忙什麽。匆匆幾句就走了。
咳。
刻意的避開了某老師。還記得他是多么的偏心,我真的不想見到他。
教學不是很好,真的不知道爲什麽……。
算了,今天教師節,就別把話說的那麼難聽。
最後最後……真的好開心能夠見到周老師!
她還是樣子。呵呵,
差點認錯老師了。
都怪我的近視度太高了。
幸好,總算看到了周老師。
她從我小一教到我小三,一連三年。
啊,往事只能回味。
以前她對我很凶,很嚴厲。
不過嚴厲之外還有關心。
當時我的造句本子不見了,考試又快到了。
她不停地罵我,還說要「告訴家長」。
我當時真的好討厭。
不過,她在放學前趕緊交給我一份複印的造句本。
她拿了班上最好的學生的本子,複印了全部。
這就她是為學生的付出。
本來她不能這麼做的,不過她不想我的考試考不好。
周老師很高興我能來看她;她說她前幾天在整理卡片時有看到我爸給她的感謝卡。
真的好巧哦。
萬分情緒湧上心頭。
也沒有哭啦,不過是很感動。
跟她談了好久。
最近她的腳又是不能好。
去年教師節來看她時,她請了無薪假期。
她說,如果她的腳在無薪假期后仍不能好,她打算不教了。
幸好,她的腳是有比較好點,她才能夠返校繼續教下去。
啊……啊
太好了。
最後,祝天下老師教師節快樂!!



aboutme.

From Singapore. 20 years of age. Blogs as and when inspiration comes, in British English (and Singlish), Traditional Chinese and (hopefully) Russian. Not a lifestyle blogger, expect posts to be serious, dull or even obscure. I enjoy comedy, in particular British humour.



interests.

[more or less in order] medicine | forensics | theatre | modern world history | typography (including style and grammar) | visual design | Taiji | Chinese language and literature | Mandarin pop (and singing) | Apple products.



typography.

PT Serif for main text and links. Ubuntu Condensed for dates, post titles and sidebar headings. Both fonts from Google Web Fonts.



credits.

singzeon. by Sing Zeon is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International Licence. Pictures used here either come from my Instagram (instagram.com/singzeon) or Google image search. For the latter, I do not own those pictures.



quote.

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