28 June 2013:
Some random musings X.
1. I have way too much random musings.
2. Some of my friends are recently plagued with relationship-related issues. I know it can be quite distracting for them to be thinking of someone while focusing on work. I hope that they can tidy up their emotions as soon as possible.
The above message was taken from a chat I had with someone. I'm not gonna list his / her name or even initials because I don't think it's nice to reveal. No matter how contrived or pretentious it may seem, it's true.
I'm sure at times when we're overwhelmed by emotions, we do wish to switch it all off. Temporarily escape reality, whatever works. Which is why for me, I've decided to just switch it off from the start.
Maybe people who have followed me on Twitter since a long time ago would know. Previously I used to be very 'emo'. When I was feeling upset I would post tweets and feel bad. Sometimes people would show concern, sometimes not.
Nowadays, I almost never do it. It's not that I am perfectly happy every single day now. It's just that somehow I've become slightly emotionless, so I am less affected by things already. I know what you're gonna say: isn't that becoming less humane?
I guess in a way, yes, I am one step closer to becoming a robot. Pragmatic, realistic and void of emotions. But I suppose till now things are controllable. I am able to control what exactly I should or should not feel.
3. Linking back to a point I made previously, 單身挺好的. It's good to be single. I'm not saying that being in a relationship is no good, but I guess many a time staying girlfriend/boyfriend-less can actually be wonderful.
When you don't fancy anyone, you don't spend time thinking of him / her. You can save yourself from heart attacks or heartbreak. As someone recounted to me, their emotions could be affected by whatever the other party does.
I imagine a puppeteer. He is pulling you, controlling you. He is skilful at it. He using a special kind of strings: heartstrings. From what I heard, these strings are difficult to get rid of. You're gonna have a hard time being under the control of the puppeteer.
Therefore, I say, release yourself. Leave all this emotional drama till later. Focus on friends, family and studies. This may sound really like what some adults would advise, but I guess it's rather true.
4. My first paper is on Southeast Asian history, but I have not touched any material at all since the holidays started. Good luck to me, aye.
5. I really, really wish for a time where I can spend it all in the library. I went to the library recently after a long while and it was renovated. There were many new books there. Maybe it's OCD, but I am absolutely drawn to books in a series. I wanna collect them all.
6. I knew it, you changed.
7. Recently my attitude towards things has been one of 'meh, who cares?' And I don't know if that's good or bad. Point in case, when an Indonesian minister scolded Singaporeans as childish kids. Practically the whole nation reacted. Except me.
It's not that I'm not upset by his comment. But I felt that there was no need to react over it. I'd have to say, though, it's good to see Singaporeans being so united. Then another case popped up just now.
Someone scolded students from Temasek Academy (TJC's Integrated Programme branch) because some of them were at the library and 'hogging' seats. The person reasoned that since they do not have O Levels, it's not as urgent for them so they should not use the space.
There were many strong reactions regarding this post. Meanwhile, I had the same reaction. 'Meh.' What that guy / girl said was insensitive and incorrect, but I really didn't feel a strong sense of indignation to react angrily enough.
This non-reaction of mine has surprised me too. (Ironic eh.) Previously I used to be those who would react strongly to things. It would be others who tell me 'Hey, no point being so angry, anyway [...]'. Now it seems like I've done it.
Yet, could this just be another sign of my becoming a human void of emotions? I never know.
8. The 9pm show showing on Channel 8 now is rather wonderful. Compared to the previous one which I wrote a post about, this one is gold. Maybe it's because the cast here is all experienced, unlike that one.
I'm actually drawn to watching it night after night. Sadly school is starting soon and I don't think I can really watch every single episode of it. What a pity. Nevertheless I foresee a high viewership for this drama, all the best for it.
Also, I noticed that for this latest drama the sound editing is really good. There were techniques that were not explored last time. The theme song and sub-theme song are also excellent. I really think the person / people in charge of this drama's audio should win an award.
9. I strongly believe that children below the age of 13 should never use Facebook, Twitter or Instagram. They should learn how to socialise and make friends in real life. Then the social networks come as a supplement, which would be handy to keep in touch with their primary school friends.
Otherwise, generally kids who use such networks at such a young age tend just to post embarrassing and lame things. Almost guaranteed self-embarrassment in the future. Also, how are they gonna learn human interaction if they are going to be stuck to the screen for so long?
TTFN.