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31 May 2010:

Attack as a form of defence.

有時候,面對問題永遠比逃避問題來得好。至少對方知道你還剩一點點反擊能力。

@HuiJun♥: Hi. haha.


24 May 2010:

These few days were really shit. I think I'm suffering from Post-Exam depression.



在短短的幾天內,好多事情發生了。
我作了一個“重大”的決定。
我決定不要再纏著沒有結果的人。
我也許已經傷害了她,或者讓她很煩。
現在想想,我怎麼那麼一廂情願的自私呢?
K友都說了,我們之間不可能。
我偏不相信他,選擇堅持下去。
現在事實證明了,他說得千真萬確。
在臉書上每每看見你的最新動態,我的心又揪了一下。
當時愛得轟轟烈烈,如今沉默畏縮。
為此,我的一位好友還因此誤解我。
不過,我的確是自私的。
爲了她,我竟然去“犧牲”我的友誼。
當時的我,怎麼就忍下心來,發那則簡訊呢?
要是我的手指沒那麼好動就好了。
目前,我需要澄清很多東西。
我只希望,我們之間的關係不會再惡化了。
那種感覺不好受。
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在班上,我最近的確是變得很內向。
什麽討論等都遠離。
今年的男生有9個。單數。
在這個時候,我就是那位“孤單”的人。
D問了我,“你真的那麼孤單嗎?”
我也不知道怎麼回答。
當然,他們不主動,也不是他們的錯。
是我表現給人家的態度不好,他們才會照著作。
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最近,嫉妒也常在我心中圍繞著。
不是妒忌,而是嫉妒。
妒忌應該會比嫉妒“好點”吧。
只是,我覺得我被不公平地對待了。
同樣是朋友,爲什麽我的待遇會差得天壤之別呢?
難道,我只是¼的朋友嗎?
我們幾年下來就值這麼多?
我真的不知道,也不想知道。
每次他在享受著眾人仰慕的眼光,而我卻是那個被鄙視的人。
也許這個時候很多只手指會突然指著我說“這一切都是我的錯,不要去怪他們。”
也對,也錯。
我承認,在某些方面,也許是我處事時的態度惹人厭。
不過,爲什麽他的錯誤就能被接受呢?
我已經看到了很多,他在態度上很明顯的缺點。
可是,人們往往就會閃過他的錯誤,而著重于我的錯誤。
這樣子真的不公啊。
沒錯,我也不是100%沒有偏心。
不過,我很肯定的是,我沒有這麼極端的偏心。
要是我討厭那個人,我肯定是整天“酸”他、跟他作對等。
我也不會去管我到底有沒有得罪到他,只要不做的太過分。
所以,我不知道爲什麽有些人選擇極端偏心。
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我好希望“考試后憂鬱症”能快點消失掉。
這樣子我就能專注于假期作業。
快點做完=快點玩樂。


21 May 2010:

Love No More

我知道就這樣放棄好像很可惜。
可是我真的束手無策了,到底該怎麼做的問題,我已考慮許久。
於是,就決定一了百了。
咳。


20 May 2010:

Here's something I would like to say to the teacher that made the whole of EP run last during 2.4:

Maybe u were busy. Mayb there was confusion / chaos so you were flustered.
BUT I DON'T CARE.
Firstly, the surprise announcement of EP running last, due to a request by RP.
I don't know how others think, but it totaly wasn't RP's fault.
Yes, they had spent a lot of (wasted) time waiting, hence they would have that request.
But then why must EP be the only one that is "suffering"?
Why can't you just shift RP to the front of the queue to run?
That way, the "burden" would then be shared by all classes running.
There would be an end.
Worst of all, why must you shout at us?
I could swear that our attitude was 99% pleasant. Nobody shouted at you, isn't it?
Why must you raise your voice at us as you explained? Did you think that a loud voice could make us satisfied or convinced?
No. You angered us somemore. So what if there were repeated apologies? Do we really care about that.

Full of crap logic and bad attitude.
BOO.遜斃了!


19 May 2010:



this thing is really getting me crazy.
i don't understand why can't you treat everyone fairly.
secrets. frankly speaking, i m pissed with ur secrets.
yes, i can't force u to tell me, but can u stop the tormenting?
can u stop showing such bias standards openly.
it pains me.
what, exactly, did i do wrong?
i just don't understand.
wat brought abt the sudden extreme change in ur attitude towards me?!
since then, i just became a form of comparision.
well, i suppose u used me for the rite purpose. since i m losing to u most of the time.
mayb tt makes u happy. i don't know.
i rly hope all of tt cn stop.
there's not much time left.


12 May 2010:

世界怎麼變成這個樣啊?!

中國最近似乎很“流行”在學校殺人是吧。短短的幾個月就有這麼多案子。
難道殺手們都覺得殺死小孩很刺激嗎?
簡直沒人性。中國目前實行 One Child Policy,要是這些孩子被殺死,父母豈不是悲痛欲絕?
沒造福人群就算了,他們怎麼還造孽呢?
多少無辜的人就因為這些殺手而死掉。


7 May 2010:

M Y E

MYE is about ½ over. I’m only left with ¼ brain juice.
For people that know me well, you really shouldn’t trouble me when you see me walking out of the exam room without conversing with anyone.
It would mean that I did (or at least felt that I did) badly in that paper.
Which is why, I was “emo–ing”.
The papers were okay.
Meaning: Below expectations.
I shall not comment about English.
I could do Math. yay. just tt i m abit worried 4 paper 2 of math. since mensureation wasn't tested, i m really afraid tt they make it a mensuration paper. my algebra n mensuration standard is really 天壤之別.
ARGH! HCL 作文。我覺得我的公函還好,作文就真的差強人意了。最終只能拼個“感人結尾”,希望老師能感受到我的“感人情愫”。
I shall not comment about Bio.
For history, I really should practice SBQ!!! Surprisingly, I could do SEQ and judgement qn. Really hope I can get 30+ for it.
Today's Lit. Haiz. No comment too.
And good riddance to you Geog. (saying it way in advance).
Why can't they end Chemistry earlier? Let us have the enjoyable papers 1st.
You have been reading my nonsense for n minutes. Aren't you tired / bored? I am. That's all for this post.


1 May 2010:

辛事=辛苦的心事。

well well well
i noe it's been quite cowardly of me.
i had no 表現 since a long long time liao.
others r making progress.
actually is tt a gd ting?
i duno. it jus seems harmles, doesn't it?
lately there r posts abt "nt able 2 4gt u" issues.
ah, side-effects.
tt i dread.
it all seems like heaven, but when u gt there,
all hell's unleashed.
so i realy dun wan tt.
tis yr is eventful. i dun wan it 2 b disasterous.
so, shld i?
to me, it's jus a matter of when. to ask.
SOMEONE ENLIGHTEN ME.
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