7 November 2015:
離群值不一定能快樂。
I wanted to type a long post as usual, but then I realised
that I’m too tired (emotionally) to do so.
I am tired of being the one to ask around my small group of
friends whether or not anyone wants to go out. Sometimes I feel like a whore,
pandering for people’s company and bending to their whim and fancy.
Yet, if I don’t do so, no one will ask me out and I’ll just
be a loner.
Which I already am, in some ways.
In army I can talk to a lot of people but come 1700 they go
their own ways.
What I have, or think I have, are secondary and JC friends.
But even then from time to time I learn that they go out without me and that
really hurts.
I mean, if we are a group, why is it that I am ignored and
only when I ask that I realise I’ve missed so many other outings?
I am that guy that no one actively thinks of when having outings.
And that really sucks.
Recently there’s a movie that is very in-demand. I want to watch
it (in a cinema), but can’t find anyone to watch with. It is that bad. When I
ask around, I learn that people have either watched it with other friends (can’t
really blame them), or have watched it themselves but without me.
I’m just an outlier that people don’t really bother about.
TTFN.