31 May 2011:
Friends.
(This is by far, my shortest post title.)Simply put, I feel I am not being appreciated.
No, I do not want a whole group of people fussing over me. What I want is a group of people, or even one person, who shares their troubles with me, and I do the same.
I don't see a point in being nice anymore, to people whom I am not very close with. After all, they have their own groups. When their own groups don't care about them, they post a distress signal.
And when I go over and see what's wrong, I am rejected. What does this mean? To me, it simply means that I am more like a hi-bye friend to many.
I meet people in school, say hi, say bye, and that's it. That's all I can achieve in my friendships. People are showing their affection towards their friends all over their place, and I am but a loner. People acknowledge my presence, but that is all.
Well, of course, when they need me, suddenly the "friendship" seems stronger. People definitely would say: "Oh, these people were never your friends."
If I exclude these people from "friends", who would I be left with? Maybe a paltry few? But hey, they have their lives too. I can't bug onto them all the time; it's not nice of me as well.
So sometimes I think: Why am I such a loser? Is this sort of revenge for being so mean to so many people previously?