4 June 2010:
Dear “secrets”, I really don’t know how to react to you:
You seem like a good friend to me, don’t you? Well, no.In school, your attitude is so different from what it was outside school. You go against me almost every time there is a chance to. At first I thought it was because you were just “having fun”, so I didn’t mind that much.
A year later, it really hasn’t changed. This made me wonder whether you really are “playing” with me. Or are you purposely avoiding me, for some reason or another?
I really don’t know. You either be cold as ice to me, or be very friendly all of a sudden.
What kind of explanation can be given for such behaviour? I really don’t know.
Oh yes, another thing here, I don’t like being a friend that you use to compare, win, and jeer at. I’m quite sure that you know that I don’t jeer at you (or at least I do it jokingly). You do it with intent, and I seriously find it hard to believe that “you are joking” with me.
Perhaps I should not think of reasons for you anymore. I should just attribute all your eccentric behaviour as a form of going against, be it for fun or not. I am really tired putting up with your “attitude swings”. What do you treat me for huh?
If you noticed, I seldom do really get angry with you. It’s not that I don’t, actually. It’s that I try not to. I could have, but I felt that you are still quite important to me, so I should not let my temper have its way.
So if you are reading this post, and know I am talking about you [“secrets”], can you perhaps try and clarify things with me? I know that sounds a little selfish: it was me that wanted an answer, but I’m expecting you to ask me. Well, I’ll tell you this, I might / might not be selfish, but I’m sure that it’ll help greatly if you could take the first step.
Make anything you want out of this: I will feel sad, but I won’t feel a pity.
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至於武術呢……
今天有ＤＳＡ的人來到中正。當中就有２人是打太極的。他們都是打４２太極的：年紀比我小，程度比我深。咳……哈哈。於是咯，我就是要快點學好４２！
今天不懂爲什麽我非常的不認真，把兩位教我的人給氣壞了（哈哈）。尤其是學拳時，呵呵。不過真的啦，今天學的第二段的確是有點難。再加上我平時不是一個 quick learner，所以就需要慢慢來。太極已經有夠慢了，哈哈。下個星期沒有武術，打從心裡說啦，是蠻可惜的。一個禮拜沒有練，雖然是可以讓腿部肌肉快點好起來，不過肌肉可能過於鬆弛，那也不好。
今天教練突然說有看我們控腿，哇！全部人嚇到咯。然後快點壓腿快點練控腿前後的動作。哈哈。
:) 「失敗並不可悲，人生的悲哀是身臨絕境卻毫無意識，甚至自以為勝。」