1 September 2016:
Homo proponit, sed Deus disponit.
I’m atheistic, so the above phrase does not exactly describe my belief. But I guess one could say that I am fatalistic, so perhaps mine would be that of ‘man proposes, fate disposes’. Either how, yes, that is my constant belief.Of course, being a non-believer, at times it does make facing the unknown a little difficult. At times of crisis, who doesn’t prefer throwing their hands and praying to a god, asking him to ‘show me a way’? That would be great, wouldn’t it.
Now, I’m not here to start a religious or theological debate. And actually, I am digressing quite a bit from my original intention for this post. I should get back on track.
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There is a cohesion event for my HQ tomorrow. I am not attending it, choosing instead to forgo a half-day off and a morning of no work. Instead, I will remain in office and do work. Yes, I bet that sounds like the plans of a mad man to most.
But, I have my reasons, no matter how unacceptable they may be. S commented that I was being anti-social (pedantic correction: should be ‘unsocial’) but no, to me this was not why I am absenting myself. In the past, I have been unsocial but this time it is not the reason.
I guess from events over the past few days, I have no mood to really ‘take a break’ and walk. (At this point, you may want to say how ironic that sounds.) Also, again due to whatever events that happened, I’d prefer not to unwillingly trigger myself and/or others.
Yet, as fate would have it, I planned for the exact opposite of what I expected. And because I realised this too late for any feasible remedial action, I will be taking things one step at a time. What a twist, what a joke.
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On an unrelated note, I have been imposing a hiatus on Breaking Bad for the past three or so weeks. Those around me for the past two months would know that I spent that period binge-watching the first four seasons of it.
However, when I completed season four, it suddenly dawned on me that I rushed through the episodes and that I am left with 16 episodes of season five. Again, you may realise how much I enjoy watching Breaking Bad, and how I’d hate for it to end.
Hence, whilst you may call it fooling myself, I decided to ration my consumption. Actually, I realised that by doing this, I learnt to better appreciate and analyse the story. What’s more, I found an official podcast by the crew.
This means, they are able to share insider information about episodes, revealing certain aspects which I have never known / thought of. So yes, I am starting from season 2, listening to producers and crew talk about each episode.
Once I reach season 5 however, I will then work out a ‘schedule’, such that I can slowly enjoy the remaining episodes of this wonderful show. I’ve never liked a show quite this much thus far, and I am truly in awe by how much work has been put in for it.
TTFN.
As an afternote, I am getting back my groove for blogging. I guess six years of doing it certainly embedded something within me. Anyhow, I am still not confident to properly open my blog, so I will keep it as closed for now. Maybe some day soon, I will open it like last time.
I don’t claim that my blog is very well-read, but one negative aspect of gaining more popularity and readership is the loss of privacy. Sometimes, I may blog about slightly more personal stuff, which certainly doesn’t require everyone to read about it. Other times, I may instead blog about certain insights, which I am more than happy for as many people to read and critique.
No doubt these two do not go well together. No wonder some celebrities set up private accounts on social media, where they only allow close friends (and no fans) access. Obviously, I am nowhere as famous as that, so I’ll not need it. Nevertheless, it does make me wonder if I should set up a sister blog for personal rantings. As many like to say nowadays, see how lah.