13 March 2014:
You think being an actor very easy, is it?
Absolutely not. Anyone who thinks that drama is just about memorising lines, delivering them and looking glamorous is so very wrong. Drama is so much more, it is an experience which ideally fully immerses the actor.Today was the first actual session of blocking for my parts in SYF. It was such a stressful process. H spelt out the various actions and movements that I would use for the scene. Being a slow learner, I made quite a few mistakes.
Worst of all, I wasn't fully relaxed and not fully prepared. Firstly, I was still rather stiff. Add that to my desire to get things right and my performance instead became even worse. H kept making me redo but I can't fault him, I really had a lot of things to improve on.
For example, my expressions are still as boring as ever. This was a point that H and the teachers have mentioned and I don't deny it. I have chronic bitchface, and this makes things worse since sometimes I look angry / bored / upset when I'm not.
Therefore, basically, my face just looks stiff and expressionless. Even though in my heart I'm trying to express joy and fun, those who watched say it just looks stiff. I just hope it's because I've not done facial warm-ups for a while now.
Secondly, today was still not really familiar with my lines. There were some slip-ups in the lines here and there, and this made the execution of actions worse. Thankfully today only required lines of the first scene, which I'm more or less familiar with.
However, since H says he aims to finish blocking by next Monday, I'll have to try to finish memorising the remaining lines. Honestly, I don't know if I'm able to do that. I mean, eventually I get it memorised but by Monday ...?
And because I have never really memorised anything before (not even bio), I don't really know how to start. Even for Twelfth Night, I didn't exactly memorise it. I just kept repeating it during rehearsals until it stuck.
But now I don't have that much time or rehearsals to slowly get my lines. We are running on a tight schedule and I really don't think I can afford to forget my lines that much. Therefore I have to do whatever it takes to remember my lines!
Besides the lines issue, I have not created a character yet. Essentially, that means I have not set out what exactly my character is about. This therefore results in a very bland deliver of lines since I'm not into character yet.
Haiz.
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The weeks ahead are gonna be tough and rough. MCTs are coming up; after that it's crunch time for SYF. As a result, I'll probably not have the time to blog. My posts usually take 1 hour or more, so I certain won't have the luxury of time any more.
TTFN.