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21 June 2012:

There are some answers now.

I know why J is so sad now. The guy he likes doesn't like him back. He's certainly rather distraught by it; I can only wish him the best of luck with things.

My bookshelf has a few additions recently:


From left to right: 笑傲江湖 book 1 to 4 by 金庸; The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by late Stieg Larsson; Only Time Will Tell by Jeffrey Archer; Emma by Jane Austen; Stand Alone by Simon Tan; 后青春期的詩 by 九把刀; Selected Works of Edgar Allan Poe; Macbeth by William Shakespeare; The Chinese Mind by Boye Lafayette de Mente.

Both The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (2008) and Only Time Will Tell (2011) are part of a series. For the former, the second and last instalment are already published in 2009 and 2010 respectively. The latter is more recent, and its second instalment in a five-part series is just out.

Stand Alone (1991) is a re-published edition of short stories. This is a local book, which has very good reviews based on online information. Some schools even use it for their literature text. Yet, Wikipedia doesn't have an entry of it, and the first few mentions of it on Google search are from people's blogs. Why is local literature in such a sad state? It is true that other countries have a larger trove of literature since they were independent earlier, but I believe that Singapore's literature can be equally fantastic. More should be done to promote local literature, instead of works that lack in substance by foreign authors.

后青春期的詩 (2008) ... When I saw this title, I thought: isn't this one of 五月天's album's title? When I searched online just now, I couldn't find any explanation as to why the novel has exactly the same name as the album. Wikipedia says the novel was published 29 October 2008, and the album released 23 October 2008. If you go by the saying that 'the earlier one is the original owner' (of the name), then I guess you can say it belonged first to 五月天 ...? I'm not too sure myself.

As for Edgar Allen Poe and Macbeth, I was really delighted to find them. I found them at the last instant, just before going to the cashier. I was roaming around my last round when I saw the staff place new books onto the tables. So I went over and saw these two books amongst others. I immediately took these two up and displaced one or two other books in my tray.

I remember one of the eliminated books was Bring Up the Bodies (2012) by Hilary Mantel. The book did seem interesting, but I somehow felt that EAP and Macbeth were more interesting. Maybe next time I shall buy that book eventually. It's about King Henry VIII and things that happened around then, and it's actually a sequel to Mantel's previous book.

TTFN.


20 June 2012:

Big blogpost off.

Let's just say it's not a good time for me. So I decided to call off the blog post, delete the draft. You may say I'm just slacking, okay then.

This seems to me like rough period #2 of year 2012. Of course I understand that's it's impossible for every year to pass by with only happy events. There will be times where life is just below the x-axis. (Not funny? Don't laugh.) But it certainly sucks when it's one of those times.

It's the school holidays. I'm supposed to be having a break, while of course studying for O Levels later this year. This week is week 4. Week 1 to 3 were alright. In fact, they were rather pleasurable. Thus far, this week just sucks.

Previously when I had twitter, I would probably send out 100 tweets / min, articulating my depressed state. Occasionally people would show their concern; of course, the majority would still regard my postings as crap or whatever else they regard it as.

Without twitter, I certainly don't have an outlet to vent. It's not that I'll be creating one anytime now. People would certainly not follow someone who vents all the time, immediately after re-creating an account.

I just hope that school will start soon, and I have less of these problems. With the start of term 3, I will (hopefully) be drenched in piles of homework or revision or books, so that I can blind myself from things that suck.

Maybe sometimes being a nerd isn't that bad.

TTFN.

This guy J that I stalk frequently visit his profile is feeling down too. I can tell he's having it worse than me. Well I hope he would be better soon. Of course, he certainly won't read this, cos he doesn't even know who I am.


17 June 2012:

I actually wanted to blog something only tomorrow.

But today I had a few experiences that impressed on me greatly.

1. The first would be this report on LGBT people in Singapore.


In case you didn't know, the rainbow coloured circle is a representation of the LGBT flag below:


It's true. LGBT people in Singapore are still facing discrimination from others.

I really don't get where homophobia comes from. Why are some people so scared of LGBTs?

In the report, it was mentioned that one boy who was gay was groped when he was in secondary school. His attackers said that since he was gay, he would enjoy being touched by other guys.

Are these people sick or nuts? In my opinion they should be the ones being discriminated against, for being so perverted. LGBT does not equals to being slutty, yeah? Being LGBT doesn't mean that they would enjoy any man / woman touching them. They too wish that they would find their other half, and stay faithful with them.

Others think of LGBTs as infected by disease. Seriously? Where did they get this ridiculous misconception from? Just because you have a gay friend, for example, it doesn't mean that you would 'turn gay'. If you did, chances are, you're subconsciously gay, he just made you realise your sexual orientation.

... There are so many misconceptions or misunderstandings against LGBTs, and yet nothing is done to stop this in Singapore. This is mainly because, as the report mentioned, the Ministry of Education is very careful not to mention anything on homosexuality at all during sexuality education.

PM Lee often touches on having an inclusive society for Singaporeans. How is this inclusive when homosexuality is silenced during proper educational settings? I'm not saying that you teach primary school kids such stuff; maybe it's too complicated for them. But perhaps at secondary 4, it's time to introduce them this alternative lifestyle that some people adopt.

Of course, you wouldn't glamorise or promote it, just lay out the facts regarding this LGBT issue. At least, get students to understand that there are some people who are LGBT. They are no different from anyone, besides their sexual orientation. The students should learn that these people should not be discriminated against, but live, work, and interact with them harmoniously.

Singapore still retains Section 377A of the penal code, which criminalises gay sex between men. I read from somewhere that this section of the penal code was from Victorian era, where Singapore was under the British and it was illegal to be homosexual.

It's 2012 now; perhaps time for some change. I believe that society is ready for some slight changes over the years. For one, a repeal would help to loosen the discrimination suffered by LGBTs, especially gays, for that matter. Imagine when people say "even in the law it's illegal for you to have sex" to a gay guy, how hurtful would that be.

Then again, it's not as if a repeal would work wonders and all discrimination would disappear. The government (possibly with the help of civil groups) needs to educate its citizens, the conservative ones, that they should learn to accept them. Misconceptions and doubts should be cleared; that would make acceptance much easier.

In 1998, Lee Kuan Yew mentioned

And as you know, Singaporeans are by and large a very conservative, orthodox society, a very, I would say, completely different from, say, the United States and I don't think an aggressive gay rights movement would help. But what we are doing as a government is to leave people to live their own lives so long as they don't impinge on other people. I mean, we don't harass anybody.

Frankly speaking, I'm not very upset at his remark. Although it certainly hurt the LGBT community when he told them to "live their own lives", I'm not very upset. Well, it's because it was 1998. Frankly speaking, Singapore was very conservative in the past. Partly, it was due to an overpowered government who pressured citizens to diam-diam and stick to traditions.

In 2011, in his book (I don't even need to type its name here; everyone should know his book right), he answered

That's life. They're born with that genetic code, that's that. Dick Cheney didn't like gays but his daughter was born like that. He says, "I still love her, full stop." It's happened to his family. So on principle he's against it, but it's his daughter. Do you throw the daughter out? That's life. I mean none of my children is gay, but if they were, well that's that.

when asked what if one of his grandchild is gay.

What a change, isn't it? He still doesn't go all-out supporting them, but his stance towards homosexuality has shifted. He is progressing, and so should society. It should progress and accept LGBTs for what they are.

Moving on ...

2. I read Xiaxue's latest entry just now. It sure was wordy, perhaps more than mine. (But I know that people would rather read her wordy posts than mine.) Anyway, it sure had a lot of good stuff.

For anyone calling her a bimbo, you might have to change your judgement. Xiaxue was introducing some method of thinking called The Secret. The whole thing was really long, but I could tell that she was so passionate about it.

The main message I got after scanning through the article was that we should have gratitude and be more affirmatives. Gratitude. This word brought me back to November 2010.

I went to Yunnan in November 2010. (There's a post dated 24 November 2010 about it.) Throughout the three days serving the children, I could experience their gratitude. It was sincere.

It's definitely not the kind you get from kids when they say 'thank you' just cos their parents told them to. Okay, I am guilty of that too in the past. The kids were really gratuitous towards us. They really appreciated the things we did for them.

In Singapore perhaps we are generally too affluent. We have too many things. We don't really have urgent needs. (Note, it's needs, not wants.) So when we get something that we may actually require, we aren't really gratuitous. To us, it's either (1) supposed to be given to us or (2) a bonus that we take for granted.

Such isn't the way to go. It's not as if we need to kowtow to everyone that does something good for us. But certainly, saying a sincere word of thanks will enhance each other's lives.

Also, about affirmatives. "I don't want to fall sick." "I want to be healthy." Any difference in meaning? Almost none, isn't it. Yet, from these two sentences, the difference in tone is evident. It's almost like the half full-half empty theory.

Like what Xiaxue said (actually it was somebody before her), we should use more affirmatives. It has a subtle change, and it will impact others' lives. Without realising, there would be more improvements everywhere.

Of course, it's not a for-granted thing as well, that when you use more affirmatives, your life improves for the better instantly. For some it takes time, for some it doesn't at all.

A pastor said about how some people measured God using KPI. Although this is in a Christian context, I'm sure it applies to every other religion. Some Buddhists also ask 觀音娘娘 to help them accomplish some stuff. (I'm sure a large majority of requests are for striking lottery, tsk.) If God / 觀音娘娘 doesn't help you fulfil your request, do you 'black-list' them and move on to another faith?

No, you shouldn't. Even if things don't really happen after changes, you shouldn't do that. In this way, you are simply making use of whatever religion or faith you have. You are not believing it, making yourself a part of it. We shouldn't take for granted that we would obtain what we want.

A big post would be up tomorrow Tuesday. Heh, I pushed it to Tuesday cos I figured that this is actually very long too, and perhaps it should be left for a day or two. More certainly, two. (Get the joke?)

TTFN.


13 June 2012:

I am still shocked.

On 11 June I blogged my 290th article about public transport. I got carried away, and went on about immigration, SS, and even about ISA.

Yesterday morning, I checked the stats for my blog. Generally I'd be very happy if I received around 10 hits after every blogging day. Instead, I received around one hundred hits. (In my excitement, I didn't snapshot it.)

Yesterday night, I checked once again, and this time I managed to catch this lucky number!


(I hope it's large enough.)

Okay, okay, you might be calling me some superstitious nutcase or whatever. Regardless of that, I'm still happy with the sudden increase in page views!

I found out that my traffic mainly came from http://www.myapplemenu.com/singapore/. I viewed the site, and it was this website featuring various blogs or news articles.

I'm certainly grateful to the person that found my article and decided the recommend it there! Previously, my traffic came from dubious links that were super-duper long; I think it's all from scam websites.

At least now there's real traffic! Gosh I really am happy and thankful for the increased readership.

I know that sometimes my blog posts are very, very long, and they may get boring or incoherent at times. So I'm grateful that there are people who are willing to read through my nuances or grievances and my thoughts on them.

Of course, this increase in traffic also makes me 'stressed'. What shall I blog next? On the one hand, I don't want to lose readers. On the other hand, I don't want to blog only things that appeal to most, and neglect the topics that I like to blog about.

Truth be told, I already did up a scheduled post, but deleted it in the end. It was about Russian president Vladimir Putin. That post was one of the shortest I've ever done, and honestly, it sucked in retrospect. So I deleted it, and it's been replaced by this post you're reading now.

... I've probably repeated this countless times, but I'm really thankful for those who read. Even if you disagreeed with what I blogged, well at least you showed your support. Besides, disagreements would generate even better enlightenment for both parties at the end of the day, isn't it.

I suddenly thought of Xiaxue. I wonder how would she react if she got 8888 views. She probably wouldn't bat an eyelid. That's nothing to her. Or in fact, she probably would bat her eyelids, cos compared to the usual tens of thousands (I suppose?), it dropped to less than ten thousand?!

I hope that I would continue to receive more readers. I don't think it's really about narcissism; that's every blogger's goal.

I don't know what I will be blogging about tomorrow, but who knows?

TTFN.

Oh and to JQ: thanks for being my '忠實讀者' ah! Must be hard to 堅持 through thousand-word blog posts yeah. Enjoy your trip~ And don't get sunburnt anymore! :)


11 June 2012:

I understand the agony of public transport.

Last year during the general election, one of people's biggest complaints was about public transport. It was too crowded, they said. There are too many 'foreign talents' that invade our shores and take up our seats on public transport.

Since then, the Transport Ministry has taken some steps in an attempt to solve this problem. To me, it hasn't been solved. For a fact, I did not keep track of the changes or additional measures put in place, so I may be wrong in some areas. I do know that the government intends to use $1.1 billion dollars to fund public transport providers - which was met with much public fury.

Today I finally experienced what commuters felt when they went home from work every day. For the journey home I took MRT and bus. The MRT was not too packed, since I boarded from the first station, so it was empty when I boarded. Along the way more people came in and it did get a little squeezy. But that's alright, the MRT part of my journey.

The bus part of my journey was the terrible one. There were so many people outside Paya Lebar interchange's bus stop. When my bus arrived, you could see a crowd surging towards the entrance of the bus. Inside, it was really packed. I really experienced the feeling of 'packed like sardines'.

Previously, I either commuted by car, or by MRT or bus during non-peak hours. Hence, I could not experience this squeeze, and did not really empathise with the people's anger. Now, I fully understand why people are so angry.

Some people blame the 'foreign talent'. Personally, although I don't have too good an impression of them, I don't think the blame's all on them. After all, it was the government who allowed so many 'foreign talents' to arrive. To me, they should be the ones who are largely responsible for this.

Before opening the floodgates to 'foreign talents', they should have ensured that basic segments of society such as transport or housing would be taken care of for both the FTs and local people. Now, they are struggling to rectify to situation.

Obviously, the government cannot kick away all FTs overnight. They have cut the quota of FTs allowed into  Singapore. Of course, it still does not help the existing problem; it only prevents the problem from snowballing.

From what I know, the number of bus and MRT services will increase. With this increase, I suppose the next move the transport companies would be the increase the fares, the reason being 'an increase in expenses' or whatever other fancy term they like to conjure.

I viewed the website of Transport for London, which, as its name suggests, is the company that manages London's buses, MRTs (they call it the Tube), railways, taxis, and even some water transport. I don't know if it's a classic case of 'the grass is greener out there', but I really feel that London's transport system is way better than ours. In all fairness, I only viewed some information and a leaflet, so it could be that obviously only the best side of London's transport network is shown to me.

Speaking of the severe overcrowding in buses and MRTs, that brings me to the issue of cars, another mode of transport. In SS, we learn that the ERP method is used to control the number of cars on the roads. People would be encouraged to use public transport, since it's also more eco-friendly. But how are these people suppose to take public transport when they will be packed like sardines?!

If 1000 or more people really decide that from tomorrow onwards they would only take public transport to and from work, will the public transport system be able to cope? Obviously not; the system is already struggling now. And yet, the number of cars on the roads are still as many, and there are traffic jams every day during morning and evening peak hours.

Basically, the ERP method has not been very effective. Perhaps last time in the 90s or 00s (how does one pronounce that?!) it was slightly useful, since families were generally less affluent and felt that paying a few dollars a day was a pinch. Now, however, people view it more like a necessary stage of driving. Only the low-income group and those who are very prudent will purposely avoid ERP, I suppose.

... Sometimes what we learn in SS isn't that ideal, eh? I'm not going all out here and saying that SS is merely propaganda for us students, but in a more objective light, the textbook doesn't really give a realistic scene in the current days. (On an unrelated note, I wonder what policy would the next syllabus feature. Before my time was housing and population policy, now I'm studying population and traffic policy. Next time ... maybe back to housing?)

JQ was saying that "[something is] contrary to everything we have been learning in ss". Yeah, that's the sad case. Maybe that's why people would opine that SS = propaganda, cos it's too idealistic in its content.

Oh and to JQ (since you're overseas now I shall type this here instead): sometimes learning law may not seem that cool. Sometimes lawyers go against their conscience just to earn legal fees. You may say that you won't (perhaps every lawyer says so) but in the end, 99% does so. In retrospect it doesn't seem so cool. I think you can study law for one or two modules in some courses. But probably if you start warning people of being charged by this or that act, they'll think of you as obnoxious. Hehe #justsaying.

JQ mentioned about "how concise our laws are, how they define everything so clearly and having almost no loopholes". That may be true in some respects, but Singapore law still has areas for rectification. For one, the Internal Security Act. The only grace is that it has been rarely used nowadays.

I really don't want to dig into the history of the ISA, but simply, it has been used to arrest political dissidents with no apparent danger to Singapore. In fact, some arrested under ISA were not even dissidents. There's a lot of resources on the internet about the uses of ISA in the past; people interested can go read it.

In February 1991, then Deputy Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong mentioned about "Singapore seriously consider[ing] abolishing the Internal Security Act if Malaysia were to do so" in an interview. In March 2012, the ISA was repealed in Malaysia. It's been 3 months since March, has the Singapore government thought of even doing any amendment to our own ISA?

On cyberspace, I've read many blogs calling for the ISA to be abolished. The main reason would be because the Act has been unfairly used to crush political dissent. In fact, the actual reason why the ISA was set up in Singapore (and Malaysia) was to crush the communists. The Act was formed in 1960s, where there was Cold War.

It's been 50 years; the Soviet Union broke down close to 20 years ago. The remaining communist superpower is China. (To me, North Korea is merely the Tasmanian Devil from Looney Tunes.) Even so, China is now more socialist. In conclusion, there is no need for ISA. Other more specific acts could be set up, like Malaysia, to curb religious extremists, which is part of the Act.

Actually, Singapore's law isn't very specific at certain areas. There are some laws that were worded vaguely; it's up to the judge to decide. Only when cases appear, then do people realise that these laws have loopholes. Otherwise, it sure does look like the laws are well-constructed.

I really did search for how to pronounce '00s'. Some recommended placing '20' in front, so it would be '2000s', and pronounced 'two thousands'. However, this seems weird, since we pronounce years as 'twenty-_____', instead of 'two thouand and _____'. Instead, there was a British way: 'the aughties'. The word aught comes from naught, which represents zero. According to some sources, this is the way people used the pronounced '00s' back then. Ten years later, '10s' would be back to normal, being 'the tens'.

To JQ: I'm really not 針對-ing you, yeah? It's just that I thought of lots of stuff to say when I read those parts of your posts. Oh and 我有話和你說, maybe I shall tell you when you return.


Okay TTFN.


8 June 2012:

今天我學到了東西。


你如果把一個人當做是你的敵人,每天這麼想,這麼說,天長日久,他便真的成為你的敵人。

今天在讀昨天的早報時,看到了這句話。雖然它原本用於俄羅斯與中國的關係,但我覺得這話用在人際關係更加適合。

這句話不禁讓我想:我到底把多少人當做自己的敵人?而這些「敵人」,到底有沒有「禮尚往來」呢?也許,他們根本不知情。

一切還是怪罪于我這個人就是這麼極端。有時遇到一兩次的壞事,就一竹竿打翻整條船,認定事情就是這個樣,變不得。

就如R友。前陣子,因為一些事情的發生,我對他是恨之入骨。但是近來再次與他接觸,我卻發覺可能是那時的一些誤會。他並不那麼糟。

如果我沒有主動跟他說話,我們也許就避著對方,永遠都沒法和好。我跟他原本感情也不識非常好,一般般而已。現在能過回到「一般般」的狀態,我已經相當開心啦。

想來想去,這也許就是面子問題吧。當初的不愉快,可能是因為某一方面的人太注重面子,所以很容易認為對方故意針對他。但只要放下面子,一切就和好如初。

就這樣。


7 June 2012:

Some last words about 那些年,我們一起追的女孩.

I received the script of the movie. Okay lah not really received, but I downloaded it from some source. I hope this is not illegal though, but I definitely won't do anything commercial with the script yeah.

The script is 49 pages long. Hmm it's quite long, but from what I see of the first and last two pages, I think it was more or less the movie.

It's just that I noticed one small detail.

Did anyone see what the Maths teacher was teaching in the movie? He was teaching permutations and combinations. The question he gave on the board was about how to arrange people to sit together in class. The theme song has a line that goes "黑板上排列組合/你捨得解開嗎" ...

Have you euraka-ed now? The seating arrangment was pivotal to the love story. Perhaps if 柯景騰 had never sat in front of 沈佳儀, he would never have lent her the English textbook. She in turn would never have helped him in his studies. They would never be this close. He would never have liked her.

Wow. I didn't realise this, but Giddens was so detailed. Well I suppose he should have realised how pivotal the seating arrangment detail was in the whole story, or rather, his life story. I was still wondering why in the notes he added that it must be this chapter of Mathematics.

The whole time, I thought that it was a random thing that was included, a random chapter picked. No wonder throughout the movie it was all about nCr ...!

Okay, I hope you were equally shocked by this revelation. This movie really is a nice one, very thought-provoking. I shall finish reading the script as soon as possible.

It's always nice reading scripts. Reminds me of last time. Oh and I must say, Giddens' way of writing script is new to me. I don't know if it's the common way in Taiwan or something, though. But then this makes it more unique, which makes reading scripts more fun.

TTFN.


6 June 2012:

I went back for Wushu just now.

This was my first time training in the new hall. It's such a different feeling.

In the old hall, Taiji students would be 'banished' to the stage to train. Previously, there was no coach QB to personally train us. We would simply listen to the seniors and follow. But often, if the seniors were lousy, the juniors would follow and be equally lousy, or worse. (That's not to say my seniors then were lousy, they were really good.)

In the old hall, there was no red carpet yet. It was the green one. Now the green one's gone, I suppose. I remember that the red carpet had an error on it. The 'Singapore' word in our school logo was misspelt. (Typical China-made goods.) In the end, Mr K got JM 教練 to change it. It was real cool, he changed the thing simply by changing the threads (or something like that). I didn't actually see it, but that's what I heard.

Today's training was alright, not very tiring. I managed to skip 基本功 after a while. I am really not 'suited' for 基本功; Taiji is so much better for me. So luckily I told C 教練 that I would go and 壓腿. Heh, and I did Taiji from then.

They would be having training after lunch, but I left early. It'll be the same on Friday as well. But there's dinner with coach(es), so I need to see to that as well.

~

'History is written by the victors.'

I saw this quote from some website that was against PAP. It was so similar to the one in The Sense of an Ending. There was actually long arguments about how LKY's contributions weren't as glamourous or nobel as described in various places. I didn't bother to read, but I suppose anyone who could craft such long arguments would at least be 50% credible, yeah?

~

Montreal police now suspects Magnotta of eating his victim. I wonder how many different kinds of charges will he face? I pity the police officers that have to watch the video that shows him killing the guy. Urgh.

TTFN.


5 June 2012:

I finished watching 那些年,我們一起追的女孩.

I watched it on Funshion, so it was a very edited version with no erection, masturbation, or even nudity.

To think it was changed so much ... About 10 minutes of the film was cut, which is about 10%! How can like that ...! So I went to Youku to watch the cut scenes (they say forbidden fruit is the sweetest), there were about 18 in total.

The film was so weird without the cut scenes, seriously. Like the part where 柯景騰's seat was changed; it was because he was jerking off in class. The version I watched simply showed that his seat was changed. It sure was weird.

There were weirder parts that were cut as well. Like the part where 沈佳儀 told 柯景騰 of illegal immigrants from mainland China ... It was 和諧-ed (the keyword for censored in China) away. Like that also can ...

I wonder which parts were cut in Singapore's version. It was mentioned previously that the movie was termed NC16 cos of the masturbation scene in the front, but I wonder about those that included gay showering (no wonder I was clueless at first when I saw the credits that showed 'gays') and SM and yellow films.

Anyway ... the movie was nice. It didn't exactly follow the book, which is understandable since the book was very long and they couldn't reproduce it exactly. The book certainly didn't have that intense male-on-male kissing scene (okay lah it wasn't intense but interesting).

I was kind of expecting Giddens to appear somewhere in the movie, especially at the last few scenes where it showed 柯景騰 typing furiously on his laptop. Sadly he didn't but it's still nice.

Did anyone (that read the book as well) realise that the book did not have 胡佳瑋? It turns out that her character was added into the movie version (which means that 沈佳儀 didn't really have a friend 胡佳瑋).

What shall I watch next, I wonder? Should I start on a serial like those idol dramas from Taiwan, or stick to movies? Movies seem easier cos you won't have any 'attachment' once they end, but if a serial is successful, it will get me hooked.

Perhaps I shall watch one more movie or two, before starting on serials.

~

Yesterday was the first day of the holidays. I didn't really follow my schedule, but at least managed to complete two pieces of homework. Today morning was spent on watching 那些年, so I'm gonna use my afternoon to complete some more homework.

My computer has this bad feature that stops downloads or conversions once it goes into standby. My plan to run downloads and conversions while I was doing homework failed, as a result. So I can only download when I watch stuff or use the computer.

~

Yesterday I had the most morbid dream ever. The previously most morbid dream was when I dreamt of 福祿壽 statues looking down on me from above. That freaked me out, and until now I can still remember that scene.

But yesterday was worse.

I dreamt that my friend jumped from some building, and I was partly responsible for it. According to my dream, he climbed over the edge. I held on to his white T-shirt.

Somehow I kept thinking (in my dream) that he would jump, and I released his T-shirt. After a while, he really jumped. The teacher then (I forgot who) didn't seem shocked at all. She simply remarked that someone jumped.

There was no screams or 'thud' sound. I was simply shocked. There was no cold sweat or increased blood flow, I simply froze. I didn't dare look down, though I wonder what I would have dreamt of if I looked down.

I woke up soon after. I was so thankful that it was but a dream, I almost wanted to call my friend to make sure. In the dream, I remember thinking that he just messaged me not long ago, which is the case as well in real life.

This dream seriously spooked me. I wish I wouldn't have more of such dreams in the future.

TTFN.


2 June 2012:

This world is weird.

This post contains vivid descriptions of a murder. I am not trying to sensationalise the incident, but merely describing an actual process. You might want to avoid this post if you aren't really too comfortable with such things.

On 1 June, news broke that a US student had allegedly eaten his roommate's heart and brain. A few days ago, on 27 May, someone in Miami (now termed 'Miami's growling cannibal') chewed off a homeless man's face.

Somewhere between the two dates, on 31 May, a Canadian porn actor killed and dismembered a Chinese student. This case proves to be the biggest-scale so far, since the Canadian has fled the country and is possibly in France.

There's been a new instalment to this case as well. The Canadian has supposedly posted a video of his latest killing titled '1 lunatic 1 ice pick'. I tried searching it on Youtube, where there were already reaction videos. So apparently this video would have been viewed by more than a few people.

Most probably, Youtube would have censored this video rather instantly. I continue to see many search results.  However, I did not click into any of them, so I can't really guarantee if the real deal's still there.

According to one source, the video shows a victim naked and tied up. A man - suspected to be the Canadian - stabs the victim in the abdomen with an ice pick. The man then continues to slice various parts of the man's body.

After dismembering the victim, the man plays with his limbs and rubs them on his crotch area. He also had anal sex with the victim (which is dead by now), so this is technically necrophilia, an absolutely disgusting thing. Carrying on, the man used a knife and fork to slice away a piece of meat from the victim's buttocks and ate it. So besides necrophilia, he has also committed cannibalism. The man then offers it to his dog, who eats it as well.

When the dog finished eating, the man stuck a glass bottle up the victim's arse (again necrophilia). The final sickening thing: the man used the victim's severed hand to masturbate.

... Finished puking? The source I visited (which you really shouldn't) has a picture of the Chinese victim. The skin of his neck is spilt open, blood is soaking around him, and he basically doesn't look good at all. I think any police officer or forensic scientist wouldn't want to look at it.

The source calls the video the sickest thing the internet has ever seen. For that reason, I shall be contented with the description given, and not risk a heart attack or nightmares by viewing that video. You probably shouldn't view it too. If you want gore, watch Happy Tree Friends.

Back to my point, such people are simply ... disgusting. I can't think of other words to describe them. They have a serious mental problem and should not be allowed into human civilisation. All these incidents make me want to be a forensic pathologist even more.

It's not that I will get to see more of such stuff; that is sick. It's because I want to help these victims who died for no reason. Such cases should stop immediately. What has happened to this world, I wonder? Why are there more and more of such morbid cases?

If one were to check the history of human civilisation (which I did not), I don't think we would find such gruesome cases. And even if we did, they could have been excused, since previously humans were barbarians and did not have intelligent thinking. But now, so many more people are educated. I believe the killer and the other attackers were educated.

They cannot be forgiven for committing such acts. The man who chewed off his victim's face has been suspected of being under the influence of 'bath salts', a synthetic drug. Even so, I think it does little to absolve blame.

All in all ... weird things should stop. In such a developed (or at least developing) world, so many weird things are happening. Perhaps we should move back to ancient civilisation.

TTFN.


1 June 2012:

It's the start of the holidays and I have moved!

Okay lah, I haven't really moved. It's just that Blogger apparently changed the domain name for Singapore blogs to '.sg' instead of the previous '.com'. I suppose this way we could tell what country this blog is from. I wonder when they changed it; I don't remember seeing it previously. The good thing is that if you type in the '.com' address, they'll redirect you to the '.sg' one so there's no trouble.

But yes, it's the start of the holidays. I was telling myself a few days ago that I would make very good use of my time this holiday since it's the last one for my secondary school days and since O Levels are around the corner. And today, I realised that I had left my SS textbook locked in the locker for three weeks.

How am I to study N Ireland and Singapore's traffic policy like that?!

Never mind, I shall focus a bit more on other subjects then. And luckily, I brought my other SS textbook, so I can study on Venice. I also brought Bio textbook back, since I want to use this holidays to really boost my Bio further. It's really not enough getting a low A1 for exams, which eventually got combined with CA1 and became a disappointing B3. It does show, though, that my best science subject has always been Bio, with Chem being the exception rarely.

I am still going to watch shows though, not forgetting reading books. I'm also going back next week for Wushu. This time, I'm really setting a tight schedule, and I shall try to stick to it as closely as possible. Time is tight, and I need to squeeze showtime and study time tightly.

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Random site that I visit: Indexed. Where you have interesting charts in a fun way.

TTFN.



aboutme.

From Singapore. 20 years of age. Blogs as and when inspiration comes, in British English (and Singlish), Traditional Chinese and (hopefully) Russian. Not a lifestyle blogger, expect posts to be serious, dull or even obscure. I enjoy comedy, in particular British humour.



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